Hey CC Girl,
Welcome! Try it. Post here every day, and find other forums as well. It will get you familiar with the program, and bring you down the right path. Anything is worth a try when you have our disease! Anyhow, I will say that the program is geared more for the "meeting" environment and the "fellowship" that brings. Don't push yourself into something that will make you run away from this great quest you are undertaking, but if you could find a sponsor locally who is willing to work with you with your situation, that would be even better. Do you have the "Big Book" yet? If not, try this online edition:

http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_tableofcnt.cfm

With a bit of patience you could get some great input here.  I am sure others will chime in and probably "Pinkchip" would be a member you could get good advice from because he is a counselor professionally.  

Tom

there should be a local AA hotline, give them a call and request two members (same sex as you) to come visit you in your home if you request it most likely they will do so, most areas I have been to have 12 step workers (people who will do house calls) , and then you can talk to them about members coming in to work with you.

With online you will get what you pay for in a manner of speaking, even though AA itself is free, we get out of it exactly what we put into it, and then when we put enough into it we get 1000x in return, but no investment, no return, and IMO only online is about zero investment, online is to augment our sobriety work, not replace it by any means.

What ever it takes to get sober. It's likely that alcoholism substantially contributes to or is the root problem or this malady. And once you're sober, you'll be able to beat it and go on to have a "normal" life. Isolating is one of the major symptoms of alcoholism. Alcoholics continue their isolation until they are unable to have a relationship with anyone, and it's how we wind up under bridges and on the street homeless.

Don't cling to anxiety as an excuse to not go to meetings. If you have contingencies built at the start of your sobriety it will not work anyhow. Yours would be "I will go to any lengths to get sober as long as I don't suffer anxiety." I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorders and depression in the past and alcholism forced me to be a shut in in my house for a while too. They are distinct problems but AA is part of the solution for all (as well as outside help). I suggest digging deep and, if you want this bad enough, proceed from there. Don't cling to sickness. This is about getting well and regaining your freedom. I suspect alcholism has played an equal part in your agoraphobia as anxiety. The disease wants you to stay shut in so you can listen to it or take some bold steps in another direction.

However, doing something is better than nothing.

Welcome Ce Ce!  Some very useful experience and suggestions above. 

I like: work yourself out of your comfort zone.  As Alcoholics we like comfort.  That's what we sought from drinking.  We don't like ripples on our pond.  Fear is the root cause of all our problems.

During my journey I learned that trying to THINK my way into good ACTING didn't work.   I had to start ACTING my way into good THINKING.  That means I need to take action even if I don't want too.  I've had to do this on many occassions. 

Recently, it was fear of confrontation.  Things in my life were unacceptable to me, but my thinking(default) told me it was easier to say nothing.  That's why you'll here in meeting we settled for less.  We miss the joy of living because we're riddled with fear.  Once I took action and left the results up to my Higher Power; I had relief, confidence and much less fear facing the same situation again. 

In a detox/rehab a few years ago the counselor wrote this for me: 

F- face

E- everything

A- and

R- recover

hi and thanks for ur response. I REALLY DO WANT SOBREITY BADD . a

And I do understand what u r saying however it is just not that easy for me.

For now I think to gain strength to make those bold moves Id like to do online meetings n go from there. I jus have to start somewhere, right??

Being scared bleep less is not cool. I want something diff in my life, so this is where I am at. FOR NOW. thnks for listening.

Thanks cuz for a minute there I felt doomed when I first reached out n checked in to this forum. alot of ppl were saying for me to step out my comfort zone n got to outside meeting, or dont allow this sickness to be an excuse. And I do agree w/some of them, I am NOT NEARLY ready to step outside. I am in need of a support group because Im tired drinking cuz I am lonely angry etc etc. It is causing health issues as well as worsening my mental state. when I first signed in my sober date was the 4th of this month however I have dranked twice since then. I now have another 48hrs sober as well as nicotine free. I know in my heart I can succeed but not by myself. I crave a better  life and know that my God has better for me. so Im not sure how to hang on n get pass 48hrs or my worst time is fridays I will constantly stay plugged into this forum n just pray that all will be well.

Most Sincerly Cece