Aloha Alexx and Good Going on the 4 weeks clean of alcohol. I use to call those problems "issues" and they use to scare the hell out of me and since I was so very new also being scared was a powerful negative until I began to realize I was surviving it. Alcoholics are sensitive people and newly recovering alcoholics tend to feel every neurological, mental, physical and spiritual tick that comes along as if it is an 9.0 earthquake and alcohol did a major number on my nervous and emotional system so until I learned to sit still in spite of the fears and keep on listening and learning I would be hopping up and down in one place. When the program started to work in my life I found a calmness I could have never imagined having without the use of a chemical.
Keep coming back...break the meetings down to just a one hour period at a time and keep and open mind when listening to others with time.
I "USE TO" isolate...tis not that way now. ((((hugs))))
-- Edited by Jerry F on Friday 2nd of March 2012 06:57:08 PM
Hi Alexx, welcome to the board. I wouldn't worry about the Bi-gender thing, it's really a part of every day life for millions of people. Some aren't even fortunate enough to know they have it lol. The Agrophobia is pretty serious because as you know you can become a prisoner in your own home. Hopefully you'll become less symptomatic as time goes by without aclohol, but you should certainly follow your doctors orders regarding that. In the meantime, John has been kind enough to build this place for us, and you should come here until you begin to feel comfortable going to a meeting. Go to as many open meetings as you can so your husband may accompany you. He'll learn alot as well.
Stay sober!
-- Edited by The Addiction Club on Friday 2nd of March 2012 07:32:41 PM
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Hi am Alexx am 35 bi gendered married with no kids and i live with my cats
I am 4 weeks clean from taking any drink
am finding things hard at the moment because of things that are going on for me right now
I lost my dad in septmber of last year and my mum has been getting treatment for cervical cancer we are waiting to hear weather she has it still or not
Meantally i am ill because my husband says am having deliosons , i hear voices and see things etc
I have been to AA once so far this week as i can only go to open meetings because i have agrophobia and will only go out of the house with my husband
So sitting in a room full of people is hard for me...am thinkful that there are online AA groups
Hi Alexx, Sounds like theres quite a load going on for you. Remaining sober will help you keep the other problems organized. Sorry to hear about your parents, and as for seeing things and not wanting to leave the house, you should understand drinking makes this kind of stuff worse...Some people got a "special" mind as they call it, and drugs and alcohol are theyre worst enemies...Keep coming back and good luck to you.
Hi Alex, welcome to the board. The dellusions and fear of leaving the house sounds like standard stuff for alcoholics. The fear is worse in early sobriety because we're not self medicating and feelings are raw. Be easy on yourself and just don't drink. You're probably a couple weeks away from feeling a lot better. It gets progressively better over time, but we must buy some time and just put our head down and muddle through it. You can do it.
Hi Alexx and welcome. Yes I was just thinking what Dean said. Nobody wakes up all happy and cheerful one morning and decides to go to AA. We pretty much all come in with all the world's troubles on our shoulders. If things were good we would have no reason to seek help. I was mentally, spiritually and emotionally wrecked, I had the delusions, hallucinations, and fears that I know you understand. I thought I was the only one this bad and mad, but these awful feeings eased off as I began to recover and I found out it was all pretty normal for an alcoholic. Keep up the AA meetings as best you can, it's fantastic that your husband takes you, and soon you will make some AA friends who will help you a bit more. It does get better, one day at a time.
