It is truly awful to admit that, glass in hand, we have warped our minds into such an obsession for destructive drinking that only an act of Providence can remove it from us. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 21
My act of Providence, (a manifestation of divine care and direction), came as I experienced the total bankruptcy of active alcoholism everything meaningful in my life was gone. I telephoned Alcoholics Anonymous and, from that instant, my life has never been the same. When I reflect on that very special moment, I know that God was working in my life long before I was able to acknowledge and accept spiritual concepts. The glass was put down through this one act of Providence and my journey into sobriety began. My life continues to unfold with divine care and direction. Step One, in which I admitted I was powerless over alcohol, that my life had become unmanageable, takes on more meaning for me one day at a time in the life-saving, life-giving Fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous.
I found a place that sends one of these each day to your email. It's at http://www.daily-reflections.com/ and you subscribe to it.
It took awhile for me to "come to believe" that my HP had (and was willing to use) power in my life. It started with the serenity prayer and just trying to let go of pain. Soon I started to realize that many situations, that I was powerless over, where resolving themselves, or I lost interest in them. Some of us have divine providence thrust upon us, but others (like myself) it's slower, bang your head on the wall till you're tired of the pain, turn it over process.
