I started drinking at a young age, about 14. After drinking for about a year occasionally with friends, I began to drink more heavily and party a lot. Never liking the taste really, I just wanted the buzz of alcohol. Also, I began smoking marijuana about the same time. Being a stupid kid, i managed to get multiple possession of marijuana charges, and m.i.p.'s. Partying hard through my childhood, coincidentally enough I managed to get a OWI when I was 17. Went to court, and received a full license for 1 more week, and then restricted for a year. Well, that week I continuted partying hard, and the Saturday before I was going to receive my restricted the following Monday, I went to a kegger, blacked out, and woke up driving 55 in a 35 in town with a cop riding me.. He quickly pulled me over and tried to give me a sobriety test, I said just take me to jail, I was obviously drunk and reeked of boos.. I blew a .17, both times.. Would this stop my ongoing partying life? Heck no! I had a ride to work from a friend who lived close by, and just kept partying. This continued for years, and when I was 23 I got sick of not having a license, and appealed. Yes, I had the year of a.a. sign sheets, letters, and all the criteria, but was lying about my sobriety and said that I had been since a few days after turning 21. I went to the hearing without a lawyer, and had my two siblings lie for my in letters and as witnesses. This was October 2010. Honestly, I had slowed down my partying lifestyle, but not stopped completely. Shortly after i received a denial for my license. This hurt, so I continued to indulge and use. Then in June of 2011 I lost my job. I started to party hard once again and kept living the chlidish lifestyle. After about 3 weeks of doing nothing but drinking, sleeping, and eating, I began to look at my life differently. I saw the lives of old friends who continued to party and drink often, what they were making of their lives, and decided I wanted better. I thank God for opening my eyes and realizing this was not the life for me. Shortly after, I quit drinking and partying with my old friends, and sobered up. WOW what a difference, I must say . Today I feel much better physically and emotionally, and have a much better outlook on life, and optimism towards. Within a month, I enrolled in college, and just recently finished this semested with A's and B's :D It has been a struggle getting to school as I live about a half an hour from. Now I'm beggining to prepare for my appeal the 2nd time. I'm scared that I will be turned down based on my lying the first time, under oath, and having other lie for me. Not really sure whether to tell the truth of my sobriety date, or just stick with the old one. Reguardless, I am happy to be sober, and feel much better about myself and thinking of the future rather than where am I getting my next buzz. My problem is I have no job, having dire trouble finding one w/o a license, and the trouble getting to school. Although I used to hate the state for not reinstating my license, I thank them for showing me the way to recovery. Yes, I have made some mistakes in my life, but I'm ready to turn the page and start living my life the right way for me. Glad to be here, and learn from fellow members with our common problem, alcoholism.
Welcome to the board John. Sounds like you had a moment of clarity. The door was open and you slipped through. I've learned that I had to have every drink and pile of wreckage I accumlated to get to where I'm at today. It was awefully painful, but with the Grace of God, I'm here to share my experience. I've learned in The Program that God loves the truth. The truth is my responsbility and I let God handle the results. Keep coming back!
Aloha John and welcome to the board also and what I'm hearing you say is that everything is going swell and you're getting great benefits from being alcohol free and rigorously honest and in a program which you are working daily. Keep doing that one day at a time and the only consequence will be that you will get more into you life than your now sober mind could ever imagine. We do have to learn how to work for it this time...we don't get it back the way we gave it away. Thank God!!
Stick around with us and in the fellowship...Listen, Learn, Practice, Practice, Practice... and of course don't drink or use one day at a time.
. Today I feel much better physically and emotionally, and have a much better outlook on life, and optimism towards. Within a month, I enrolled in college, and just recently finished this semested with A's and B's :D It has been a struggle getting to school as I live about a half an hour from. Now I'm beggining to prepare for my appeal the 2nd time. I'm scared that I will be turned down based on my lying the first time, under oath, and having other lie for me. Not really sure whether to tell the truth of my sobriety date, or just stick with the old one. Reguardless, I am happy to be sober, and feel much better about myself and thinking of the future rather than where am I getting my next buzz. My problem is I have no job, having dire trouble finding one w/o a license, and the trouble getting to school. Although I used to hate the state for not reinstating my license, I thank them for showing me the way to recovery. Yes, I have made some mistakes in my life, but I'm ready to turn the page and start living my life the right way for me. Glad to be here, and learn from fellow members with our common problem, alcoholism.