My partner and I put in almost 2 weeks working on the torch and were pleased to get the order off on time and were looking forward to the paycheck of almost 2 grand for Jan bill money and some Xmas money
Canada Post has lost the parcel.
I have shown remarkable restraint in dealing with them and sometimes I am by the minute, turning this back over to my HP
This is one of those situations that is a ``trigger`` to me. I want to act VERY childish and kick and scream and say nasty vile things about ALL of Canada Post and ALL the workers. But I know that not only is behaving wrong, it is in fact wrong, as most generalizations are. I want to pout and be bitchy. However that has never gotten me anywhere. And my partner does not deserve that. He might deserve a medal since he told me to insure the package and I didn't. He has not once mentioned that little tidbit.
So I am trying the AA way of turning it over (and over and over lol) and doing the next right thing and when my mind drifts back to it I turn it over again. I ask not that the parcel be found, but I ask for the strength to do the right thing.
Anyway I needed to vent and my sponsor has a huge family gathering and does not need to listen to the woe me tales
Wow- I am sorry. I have trouble with them regularly. They seem to mess up my stuff almost every other time something is being delivered to me. It can be really aggravating!
HP listens to vents too. Remember no self blame or shame gaming. It is what it is and acceptance of reality is one piece of evidence of your sobriety. Good girl...let it go and let you HP have it. ((((hugs)))) good share.
Yay they found it !!!! Although it should have been delivered in Windsor on wed and it is horribly late it has been found. It is in Toronto and the customer should have it on Monday.
But that is not the best thing The best thing is that I handled the stress without drinking or flying off the handle with the posties. The best thing is that I followed what has been suggested to me in the past and that is to ask for help from my HP and then let it go. My HP is awesome.
Well noooooooo Dean I didn`t get insurance. Although Alan had said you best get some insurance on this shipment (due to high $$ or who knows maybe his HP was talking to him) (p.s. he has no program and is still researching) I decided to save 19 bucks and go without in 11 years they have not lost or broke a shipment
But I honestly think this had absolutely nothing to do with the shipment. I believe it was a short (Thank God) test for me to have and show faith. I lost count of how many times I said a prayer today, anything from ``please just show me the way`` --------``please grant me the serenity to accept the outcome of this``-------------``Please take this problem because I have no control on it`` ------------Please let me not dwell on this`` or when I was going to the post office to talk to the postie in person `` please grant me the grace to deal with this effectively and if I can not have that, please keep me from ripping his face off`` lol and finally this afternoon it was just plain `` please help me``
It was after I said that final prayer that I decided to take a quick break from work and come in and check this forum and it was then that I saw a reply to another thread that had me feverishly reading the BB and it struck me that reading the BB was exactly what I needed to do at that moment, and my HP brought me to it in that way. There is no other way I would have just stopped working mid afternoon and started reading the BB. I read it at night and if needed I have a smaller edition I keep in my car for emergency as well as a tiny one I keep in my purse in case I need it when I am not home and not in my car.
In the past 4 years stress has been my trigger for drinking. Stress sets off a mindset that if not that day very shortly afterwards I am doing the classic pounding of the table wondering what the h@@@ happened. Although in the last 4 years my tolerance for stress being able to overtake me has grown much much stronger I was still fearful of stress. I don't desire a drink for a drinks sake. But when stress is kicking the s@@@ out of me I want the escape. It was just within this week that I had the WOW moment when I had the realization that I CAN do this if I believe in what I have learned and if I have faith in the program and in my HP and if I believe in myself.
I believe that what happened was exactly what needed to happen today. I am at peace with it and not even bothered that the customer may be riled since his order is almost a week late. I am also at peace with the fact that our pay will not make it back in time for Christmas. My God knows what he is doing and I am going to let Him lead the way. Something else will come thru for Christmas if that is what is supposed to happen, and if not then maybe we are supposed to be getting back to basics of what Christmas means.
Sorry for the really long answer to a simple question. This is a wonderful place to "talk"
It was just within this week that I had the WOW moment when I had the realization that I CAN do this if I believe in what I have learned and if I have faith in the program and in my HP and if I believe in myself.
I buy (and sell) quite a bit of stuff online (ebay) and usually the choice/risk to insure/not to insure is one that the buyer makes/takes. I've sold/shipped my share also and have followed this method. And never have I sent or received goods before the seller was paid.
-- Edited by StPeteDean on Saturday 17th of December 2011 10:45:31 AM
Congrats to you on the emotional maturity and faith shown during the grrry time!! :)
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