Hey all..I'm obviously new here..I decided mondaybthat I need to get off this hamster wheel I've been on since I'm 14.. I'm now 36 ..I don't know how to do it or who I am anymore..I'm the life of the party girl ..notvsure how not o be..I'm the one every one admires..yet I'm home breaking at the seams,.I took the irstvstep today and went for help..I reached and admitted the problem..god help me on this journey and hopefully I can come to this forum for insight and strength..god bless
Welcom justfindingme!!! Your right where your suppose to be. I felt alot like you in the beginning. Funny thing I have found after 4 years sober.......I can still be the life of the party. Im just not the joke of the party any more. I must admit my parties have changed. I truly feel I have had a chance to discover life all over again. I didnt know who I was but have found that little girl in me and we have started to journey to sobriety and what a joyous journey it has been. Look up some AA meetings, go and listen and you will see you are not alone. Keep us posted your in good company here!
Welcome Justfinding me! Guess what? I started in AA and went to my first meeting on my 3rd day sober. I was broken, scared, worn down, fresh out of a toxic relationship, moving out on my own...had just crashed my car. It was bleak. Oh yeah...and I was 36 years old too. By the time I found this site, I had about 60 days sober and had just earned my "60 day chip" which happened to be pink. Hence the name Pinkchip. Okay, so it is over 3 years later and life is vastly better and vastly different. I felt old and washed up 3 years ago whereas now I realize my whole life is ahead of me. I have made some amazing changes and none of it would have happened without being sober. So, welcome to AA and I pray you stick around to receive some miracles!
Mark
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Hey JFM, You are not alone. Read some of these chapters including the "stories". See yourself in there? http://anonpress.org/bb/
I am sure you will. We are all in there. The book will give you some idea of how to quit under "How it works". That is pretty much the book we live by here. Keep coming back!
Tom
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Welcome justfindingme, ... The first step is the hardest ... and the action you take the first few days and weeks are critical for a good start ... find a meeting that you can go to every day for a while and ask someone to sponsor you ... A sponsor (of the same sex) will be close to you in the beginning when you need the most guidance ... You'll likely experience periods of anxiety where you'll need a sponsor you can call anytime you get edgy ... Keep going to meetings and it gets easier day by day, and never give up, we've been where you are and if we can do it ..... you can too!
God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
AA meetings, a good sponsor, God, the 12 steps and helping others is key to changing my own life from a life of drunkeness and despair to a sober, hopeful life.