I am female, 47, I hate it, hate drinking but have to every night. I have a good job and kids. I can imagine losing everything. I pass out in bed and awake in shit and vommit. I have been to two AA meetings. I wish you all well.
Welcome to the board. Hope you will keep going to meetings and use the simple, though not easy, solution that AA offers. If you don't have a "Big Book", ask for one at your next meeting. There is a lot of support here.
Hi Melanie, welcome to MIP. I related to your post, sounds just like me when I was drinking. Quite a classy existence being an active alcoholic eh? Like most here, I found the solution through AA, after trying everything else I could think of! I pray you will keep going to AA, it really does work.
I am female, 47, I hate it, hate drinking but have to every night. I have a good job and kids. I can imagine losing everything. I pass out in bed and awake in shit and vommit. I have been to two AA meetings. I wish you all well.
Hey Melanie, ... you've described where I was some time ago ... I was at the point of loosing everything too and I was hoping to learn how to limit my drinking by going to AA ... Well, I learned that the way I drank, one was too many and 100 was not enough ... I could not not drink ... Alcohol was my 1st priority in life and that su_ked ...
I lost my friends, lost my job, and lost most my family's trust ... No one could count on me for anything ... My life had become unmanageable ... My days started with deep depression ...
In AA, I found a new life, a new way of thinking, a peace and serenity I didn't know was possible ... If you're as much an alcoholic as I am, you'll need to seek medical help during the withdrawal period ... and you'll need to discuss this with your employer ... just tell them you have some medical issues that need to be addressed and then take action to make it happen ... Go to as many AA meetings as you possibly can ... (I was so sick I went to 8-10 meetings a week for almost two years ... most don't have to do that)
You have a decision to make, and you're the only one that gets to make it ... Are you going to go our way of life or are you going to go on with your way of life? ... I told my sponsor, I don't want to do either one ... He told me; I didn't ask you what you wanted to do, I asked you what you were going to do ... I said if you make it perfectly clear to the group that I don't want to do it, then I'll do it ... (HeeHee, we are soooo sick)
Love you and God Bless,
Pythonpappy
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... you've described where I was some time ago ... I was at the point of loosing everything too and I was hoping to learn how to limit my drinking by going to AA ... Well, I learned that the way I drank, one was too many and 100 was not enough ... I could not not drink ... Alcohol was my 1st priority in life and that su_ked ...
I lost my friends, lost my job, and lost most my family's trust ... No one could count on me for anything ... My life had become unmanageable ... My days started with deep depression ...
In AA, I found a new life, a new way of thinking, a peace and serenity I didn't know was possible ...
And you've just described me perfectly too. Welcome as well.
Aloha MelanieT...welcome to the board and to the fellowship of AA...after awhile of attending as very many meetings as you can in the first 90 days of sobriety you may come to the awareness that I arrived at..."I didn't HAVE TO drink. There was no law that said I had to." You make the choice and stop having the disease make them for you.
I'm in support...You're not alone with this anymore. Keep coming back here often and let us know how you're doing and what you are learning.
Hi, I tried to get out of my miserable state on my own and nothing could make me stop. I discovered AA and have found that I actually enjoy myself, sober life is good and it has been a great way to go. Welcome to MIP, this is great place to share and learn too.
Welcome to "MIP". You're not alone in this Melanietorres, not in the least. Many of us bear the same emotional scars as you do, and have suffered similar fates as well during our active alcoholism. However, it's not always permanent. What we needed to experience most of all was some form of psychic change, to convince us that life would eventually get better. Well...guess what? It does...
Well...It did for me at least -thanks be to God and "AA", but it took me over 20 years and 12 stints in rehab before that became apparent. So don't give up on yourself, not just yet. My life has improved steadily over time and so can yours.
Recovery works...as long as we work it, and my prayer for you is one of good intentions not shameful embarrassments. Remember, the recovery process must start somewhere, and I hope it can begin for you...starting today.
~God bless~
-- Edited by Mr_David on Wednesday 26th of October 2011 04:01:03 AM
Welcome Melanie. You are currently dealing with the hardest part of getting sober. You know you are powerless but it still feels alcohol has a strangle hold on you. Keep going to AA meetings regularly and it will work out. Just don't give up.
Mark
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
