We have a real life of our own. Yes, we do.That empty feeling, that senses that everyone except us has a life - an important life, a valuable life, a better life - is a remnant from the past. It is also a self-defeating belief that is inaccurate.We are real. So is our life. Jump into it, and we'll see.......Today, I will live my life and treasure it as mine.
#####ROSIE.....finally i see that i do have a life of my own...it belongs to me now, i have taken it back!!! B4 recovery , i did feel that i had no life, no purpose, no place here.....sometimes i STILL think God forgot me and the only reason why i am living now is because i *fought* my way into the scheme of things, getting into recovery and *demanding* by my vigorous work, that "HEY!!! here i am!! now you (God) GOTTA notice me"!!! i know i am valuable, i know i contribute, and now i am sounding my trumpet that it is "MY turn now".......i no longer think of me as "in the way" or "a liability"....i DO have something to contribute, and i am NOT *going away*....i am real!!! and i am taking my life back!!!!! TODAY i treat myself much better, and i expect the universe to as well!!!! thank you DONE
Rosie writes "B4 recovery , i did feel that i had no life, no purpose, no place here..."
I felt the same, Rosie. Then I had an epiphany; God put me here to be the daughter of a crazy mother, because I'm the only one he trusted with that job. He put me here to become the wife (now ex - thank you Lord!) of a drunken addict because I'm the only one He could trust with that job and that is the only way I could became the mother to my wonderful son. He put me here to become an alcoholic, so I could find AA and be able to give back what is given to me.
Thanks Rosie. You're one hell of a lady yourself.
Love and hugs,
Doll
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
