It like I am ready and she isnt, or I have done my inventory and now I have more inventory...I seem to be able to talk with me better than women. I am envious that they have a husband, boyfriend, just being loved, you have to be there for them. Me I am just another alcoholic and that's it...The man I loved being with, had all the answers and now I cant even get up the guts to call him...totally in fear.
Hi Samantha. Trust the process. Even though it feels yucky to sit in this step, there really is no rush. If you have done a thorough third step, then you must have a strong faith to help you get through. I would recommend praying and meditating on this. You have been given all you need to complete your journey on Earth. All the tools are there, just covered by life dirt, past pain, and future fear. Trust that with guidance from your Higher Power you will be able to do the next right indicated thing. Blessings, Heather
heather Welcome back and thank you. I called my other sponsor and just over the phone and paper, I was at step 8, in an hour. Though doing my inventory daily, I have to do, and reading the word, talking with my pastor, listening , not talking. I love this , I really do...My past pain, comes up and me too, my romantic relationship, I feel used as I did when I was drinking, But I drank over it and just found another drunk to screw. This relationship I did not sleep with him.....which is a first for me...Maybe I should have, would it have changed anything...Sure wish I had sometimes. But enough of that..You are doing exactly what you should be doing and you are right where you are suppose to me. Have a wonderful day, God Bless
Hi Samantha. Trust the process. Even though it feels yucky to sit in this step, there really is no rush. If you have done a thorough third step, then you must have a strong faith to help you get through. I would recommend praying and meditating on this. You have been given all you need to complete your journey on Earth. All the tools are there, just covered by life dirt, past pain, and future fear. Trust that with guidance from your Higher Power you will be able to do the next right indicated thing. Blessings, Heather
Heather, thank you for reading my post. I do have a strong faith, I am holy ghost filled and speak in tongues. I go to prayer meeting on saturday and their is about 30 of us there with our Pastor. I am speaking directing to god and in secret, because I have no idea what I am saying... I am not an interperter of tongues. I only know that it is a gift from god and I go to prayer with it. I do a daily inventory and ask him to remove it because it distrubes me and causes fear. I have another temp sponsor, whom is a man again. The man I turely love is god and then there is a human one. Which he went to Elko, NV to work, so if any one on this forum has meet Pete yet.. he has 18 years and is a wonderful man...Yeah, I 'm checking on him....Okay, it a wonderful day here in CAlif.
I will do as you suggest. I appreciate you responding to me and helping me. I am turely grateful for this forum and with that I am on way to DUI school. Have to keep my license so I can go to meetings and work...Now, I have never said that before...I went to DUI school before so I could get to the bar...those days are over and thanks to AA my truck heads to a meeting not no bar. Yet, as much as they scare me I was that person.
I have finished the steps and now I need to be of service, some one once said "get in the middle of the herd"... I think I know what that means now..I miss him so much. I wonder if I wll ever be loved again, If I love someone, they always go away..
It like I am ready and she isnt, or I have done my inventory and now I have more inventory...I seem to be able to talk with me better than women. I am envious that they have a husband, boyfriend, just being loved, you have to be there for them. Me I am just another alcoholic and that's it...The man I loved being with, had all the answers and now I cant even get up the guts to call him...totally in fear.