Well...I made it 5 days. Then I came home from work and saw a big bottle of Jack Daniels that my husband bought sitting on the kitchen counter. I held off for a few hours and then I said to myself I would just drink untill I got a buzz. Instead I dindn't stop drinking until I passed out on the couch. I am sure now I can't stop when I start drinking. Thinking about going to a meeting, but there are none posted online. I don't want to call and have to talk to someone
I am sure now I can't stop when I start drinking. Thinking about going to a meeting, but there are none posted online. I don't want to call and have to talk to someone
Try the phone book. Look up AA. Then call the number.
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Since it cost a lot to win, and even more to loose, you and me gotta spend some time just wondering what to choose.
Hello you can also look up area your in a GOOGLE meetings in your area.You dont have to talk with anyone, but pain shared is pain lessened.Give yourself a break ,take that 1st step ,could be the best one of your life.Keep coming back let us know how your doing okay.........
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
All of us had to reach the exact point where you are at. I couldn't stay sober on my own and AA was the best way. You cannot tackle sobriety like a battle. It is a surrender that starts lasting sobriety. I cried and cried when I first called the AA hotline. I called 3 times before I actually went to AA. I actually recall talking to the hotline worker and telling them about being in a relationship with another alcoholic and wondering if there was any hope of me getting sober without having to end that relationship. It was gut wrenching. Once I did go to that first meeting, words cannot describe how relieved I felt. It was the first real feeling of hope I had in a very long time.
None of us here could stay sober on willpower alone. We needed AA.
Also, I don't know what your relationship dynamics are, if your husband is an alcoholic, if he supports your being sober or going to AA... You can stay sober regardless of the situation, BUT it will be easier if he at least respects your choice and does not leave alcohol lying around right under your nose.
I know some people that have gotten sober working as bartenders even, but for me...I had to stay away from alcohol and view it as poison completely for like a year and a half before feeling at all safe. Even in the store I would quickly divert my eyes front he wine aisle and what not. So...make plans for not being around alcohol or viewing it in your face as much as you can. That is a basic suggestion from "Living Sober" which is a little yellow book that I read very early on in sobriety. I highly recommend it.
Mark
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
I take it either your husband didn't know that you were trying to quit or he was trying to sabotage your effort, which is quite common btw. A drunk drunk is easier to control than a sober drunk.
Welcome back. Thanks for your honesty "bf"; it's certainly a rewarding experience to admit defeat, isn't it? I can't drink responsibly and neither can you, so don't give credence to that myth anymore. Put the past behind you and start living life as we should, just without the alcohol of course.
That bottle is a reminder of our past and has no place in the realms of our recovery -not in the least. Remember, boundaries are important and others should respect our decisions above all else. However, realizing that premise and applying what we've learned are two different things. Take heed as you move onwards from here; being vigilant, mindful and never weary, just in case.
Take a deep breath, learn from this experience and move on from here. Don't tread to heavy on the past "bf", just refocus all your energies on remaining sober and of course, never give up hope. We won't, either should you.
~God bless~
-- Edited by Mr_David on Saturday 3rd of September 2011 11:46:55 PM
Wow, no way I could have stayed sober during the first couple of weeks with booze in the house (and I tried, I felt I needed to keep some on hand for guests). It shouldn't be too much to ask for your husband to keep the house alcohol-free for at least the first couple of months. Don't get discouraged and keep trying!
