For your responses and support; all of them because the energy and strength is in a spiritual level, one of the levels where this disease has eroded. 

In clearer listening with my eyes and with whatever hearing I stilll have I have been able to recognize God - Akua - HP as I underestand HP. 

The first Officer out of the car to come and talk with me is named Pule (poo lay) which in my culture and the language is "Prayer".  I just said out loud I like the name.  Of course it reminded me of one of our principles.

This early morning as I was struggling for centeredness and a bit more sleep I was brought to centering as a picture jumped off of my wall and fell to the table...the title of the picture?  "Cutting through Chaos."

The reading from Daily Reflections was from a drunk who had experience his first miracle in an early AA meeting and blurted out "I am an alcoholic" and then goes on to say he doesn't know why he got the miracle or why God picked him out for it and he would continue attending his recovery so that...and here he arrive at the answer to his "why"; the very last word of the reading...Help.

And that is what you fellows have done for me over and over and which I have tried to give back as I have been taught.

I am not immune to what has become of my life as an alcoholic.  I understand it and accept it as having grace to not be as overcome from it and the grace comes from outside of me...it is given to me so that I may use it and then pass it on to others in side and outside of the program. 

I'm practicing staying still and listening.    (((hugs)))