At the moment I am finding things very difficult. My aunt was diagnosed with cancer again last week and am upset about same. My sponsor is in pieces after one of her sponsees took her own life a few days ago. She was a lady about my own age, though I did not know her, I feel badly for my sponsor and feel vulnerable. I am going through an awful lot of beaurocratic issues at present and am feeling very pissed at government departments due to the time consuming nature of everything. It just keeps going through my head 'don't drink even if your ass falls off'. I am getting to meetings, am sharing, am in good contact with my sponsor. I just feel down and am not sleeping well and I really feel like crying. I even started arguing with my HP tonight, and asking why are you doing this to me, self-centred what. I am going have a nice cup of hot chocolate and make a gratitude list. Any tips for what to do in self-pitying funk would be helpful.
Have a nice cup of hot chocolate and make a gratitude list. Read the list aloud and say "Thank You" at the end of each item. Have a good cry. Have another cup of hot chocolate and go to bed early. Sleep. (I didn't make this up-it is a "recipe" given to me for a self-pitying funk compounded with sadness and anger. Works every time.)
Pain shared helps pain lessen...You have all the correct things going for you,identifying situations,reaching out on how you feel,talking(even yelling :) with your Higher Power and moving toward a "solution!! Principles in action,some days just being in sobriety is our "best asset!! I will keep you lifted up in prayer and support...Peace.
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Thanks Guys really appreciate it, appetitie is coming back, sponsor has helped me a lot and I think I have helped her too. Thanks for the prayers they mean a lot. Did a good days work today and got some of the paperwork done, made a start every day this week on the rest and will sort it early next week when I feel less burnt out. If I need it sponsor has offered to give me a hand with it and I'll take her up on it just to check all is accurate if needs be. Going to bed early tonight and going to listen to some of my speaker tapes.
