So I poured it out and noticed the difference since the last time I was in this situation. I'm managing my neighbors house while he lives in the Conus and he just agreed to a 1 month rental and needed me to go hide some stuff and secure some stuff and take some stuff and the stuff I had to take was in the refrigerator and freezer which included his beer. I did a recovery inventory and everthing was in place; HP, me, program and I brought the stuff home. Wife is at work and I'm still under the radar. Funny still tho how the thoughts, feelings and memories just barge in like an unwanted uncle. I sat in my office while the beer was in the kitchen trying to raise their voices and get my attention and they did so what the help why put off till later what needs to be done now and its done. Realized that my recovery needs to be active and not passive and when it gets to the point where its passive that is when I'm must susceptible to the pull. Living within program makes the living so much more easy and safe. I didn't do anything with his pint of gin other than secure it.
Last time it was a half pint of hard in a "collectible" bottle and that one took a bit more focus and intensity and in the end it became more experience about how to get and stay alcohol free and sober.
Great post. I had a bit of the same thing happen to me recently. Was at the cabin with my daughter. She had bought a bottle of wine. Poured herself a glass and hit the beach. I was cooking dinner and got into the fridge and saw the bottle. A voice out of no where said take a drink. MAN....I thought I was over that stuff but it was as clear as a bell. It said no one would know and they wouldnt have. The only problem being is I dont want a drink. I want to submerse myself in it. I want to sit back and drink more and more and more..... I have the disease of more. I just giggled and shut the door. Why did I have this thought.....I had it because I am an alcoholic and always will be. Thank God I have tools and the stupid idea was very short lived. It just showed me how precious sobriety is and also how frail. By the grace of God I stuck to my program. Thanks Jerry for posting this and showing me again how to do it....
{Great post. It just showed me how precious sobriety is and also how frail. By the grace of God I stuck to my program. Thanks Jerry for posting this and showing me again how to do it...}
Amen...thanks Jerry for your testimony, it was certainly worth a double-take.
~God bless~
-- Edited by Mr_David on Wednesday 24th of August 2011 02:37:11 AM
