Lately, I keep DREAMING that I am drinking. The first dream, I was getting pretty loaded and realized that I was supposed to stay sober, and I said "F it". The second dream was last night, where I was drinking a glass of wine and about halfway through, I realized I was supposed to stay sober, so I threw the glass on the floor and said "Shit. Now I need to call my sponsor." Perhaps I dream about alcohol like I dream about an ex boyfriend. To be honest, I wake up laughing and thanking God that I am still sober and that I didn't slip because that would suck.
Also, tomorrow I get my 30-day chip! I can't believe I've made it this far!!!
Hey Blubee, I HAVE BEEN LIVING IN SOBRIETY FOR A FEW CUPS OF COFFEE AND COUPLE WEEKS AGO I DREAMED I WAS SHARING AT A MEETING AND REALIZED I HAD SOME DRINKS BEFORE AND THOUGHT OH NO!!! DREAMS WILL SUBSIDE,BUT MAN ITS A POWERFUL THING!!!! WAS VERY UNUSUAL FOR ME NOWADAYS.....anyway bet you loved coming awake huh!!! and oh yeah ,truly a blessing 30 days ,the message is hope and a promise of freedom.....
-- Edited by mikef on Wednesday 17th of August 2011 12:16:33 PM
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
My drinking dreams have a pretty consistent theme. In the dream I am either taking a drink, or I have already taken a drink and think whoa, just blew my sobriety, and then in the dream, I think that I've been sneaking drinks for years here and there and lying about my sobriety. That makes it take longer when I wake up, to clear my head. I wake up and say ok, that was a dream... then my brain says "yeah but what about all the other times" and I think no, that too was part of the dream. It took some getting used to. Doesn't happen too often, but at least once every six months or so, probably more actually but I don't always remember my dreams.
One was particularly amusing... I was standing in the bathroom at my old house, and my stepdaughter walks in and says "Dad! You're drinking!" (she never called me dad, always by my name) and I've got a beer can in my hand and I put it behind my back and say "no I'm not!!" and then I look around me and the entire bathroom - the sink, floor, etc. are all stacked with empty beer cans. Hundreds of them. The futility of denial... LOL.
Staying in support of your sobriety Blue...Congradulations on the 30 day chip...I give mine back when I reach the next time level. I learned that much of my drinking and then my sobriety as I continue to practice it get's lodged in my subconscious and when I talked about drinking dreams with my elder sponsor and confirmed it was "only" a dream he told me..."then enjoy it. It was a freebie" LOL. The elder members are wise beyond imagination. Keep coming back ((((hugs))))
30 days is a big deal. It's 9 days longer than I ever thought I would last. One day at a time is the trick. That day being today! Make the most of today. Get your sponsor to help you with the steps today! It's the only way I know to get well long term. The drinking dreams are quite normal and nothing to be worried about. Mine were like Bari's. I haven't had one for many years, but I always felt they were significant in the sense that they were my sub-conscious expressing a very deep desire to get well. Kind of like a very deep acceptance of the first step and the requirment for rigorous honesty if that makes any sense.
I have had many 'drunk' dreams , and in all reality for me, they weren't really dreams but more like nightmares!
I dont recall ever waking up from one and laughing about it. I do recall waking up and being so distraught and even crying. Then ... Id get on my knee's and thank God that it wasn't real.
I've had plenty of drinking dreams, but I have plenty of other dreams where I do stupid and weird things I'd never do in real life. I try not to let it bug me!
