I discovered the following post at the bottom of the sticky thread with the video I made. After reading it, I felt it would be best served by reposting it here.
What little I saw here moved me to tears. (My old 'puter and slow internet bogs down) Where do I start? I am the adult child of an acloholic - at age 20, I watched my mother breath her last from drowning in her own blood due to advanced cirrhosis. I thought I was immune after living through the train wreck of my mother's life.
Yet here I am, at 60, facing the cold fact that I have acquired a small and silent alcohol dependency. There, I've admitted it to someone other than myself.
So far, no damages to my life. I raised my kids sober, helped raise my grandkids, held a good job and worked the 12 ACOA steps when I found my life unmanageable from my upbringing.
So how in the world did I ever allow alcohol to take me over? After such vigilance!
Yet I cannot go one day without my beloved friend, blackberry brandy. I crave the numbness my friend gives me every night.
....and abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us as you trudge the Road on Happy Destiny. May God bless you and keep you - until then. From page 164 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous "A vision for You" the 163 pages before this paragraph 4 are as important or more.
Welcome to MIP...I'm also a "double". ((((hugs))))
WOW. If I was told I had to do all those things right off the bat, I would never have had any hope. KANAJUNE, in that deep despair and desperation I reached out terrified. Hopeless. I reached from the inside out. My hope came from finding one person that told me to go to an AA meeting. Just go. Make a beginning. Just reach out to one who gets your attention there. That is it.
David, she? has been in ACOA for awhile, I'm sure she has a clue about recovery. Willingness is the key, desperation is also very helpful, or so it was for this alcoholic.
Hello Kanajune, You can stop drinking, if you really want to. AA offers a solution and there are many ppl here who are willing to help too.
find some AA meetings in your area and start going , take it from there, as there will be many ppl there to help guide you on a new journey in your life.
