Last evening I was asked last minute by the chair of our homegroup if I could open the meeting and chair for her until she got there(never really did). Always an honor to make sure doors get opened and our primary purpose can be served and the point being,though it was very hot(church basement no air)and only about 35 people(usually 70) showed,the message of recovery and life was truly shared.This brings me back to my leaning toward a more simple life as I move on in my endeavors of life with my wife. I always work to remain in a spiritual realm guided by my Higher Power and when Im not there,I work even harder,but some days I am just soooo grateful to see where a recovered life ,working recovery daily has taken me,(and others around me doing their own work.) I truly love my life now and would not want to go back and do not really regret what happened because I know I am who I am today because of who I used to be and God has driven the bus the whole way.I remember that simpler life,running like the wind thru the school grounds,the innocense of my first puppy love,the laughter of my best friend and the love of my family.My childhood was cut short because I opened the door to the monster in 1959 as a young boy of 12 and have spent almost 84% of my life in either active addiction or active recovery(52 of my 64 years..)I am working toward letting God take care of the results of our future endeavors(moving to an unknown area,reducing my pay more than half,early social security,and no job and litte$$$)but stepping out on faith and Gods guidance.I will run like the wind again(even if its only in my mind) and I will return to that simpler way of life and It is all a gift of remaining faithful to God ,our spiritual principles applied in my life(some days much harder than others)and a yearning to really take time to smell the roses again.Do I have anxieties and fears,absolutely,but I ,we, know it was no accident or coincidence that got us this far and we will continue to move toward that "simpler life"a day at a time. Take a moment,to remember runnin down the block,tacklin your best friend,laughing till it hurt and rollin in the grass(or blacktop where i grew up!!)Mine's didnt make it,but there is a plan for all of us..we work and live in a simple program for complicated people,,,see if you can get back to the simpler side,I know Im trying.Thanks for letting me share my ramblings this morning in a spirit of God breathed life..Truly grateful!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Thanks for sharing Mike. You bring back so much memories to me when you share you personal life. I thank God for my recovery in AA, every single day of my life because I have seen what no recovery & no 12 steps has done to some of my people.
