Day six and got through the weekend without drinking but feel I had some slips in my program.As I know I can get through today without drinking my mind keeps trying to get me to slip back into my old thinking patterns.I guess I need to keep my gard up as my mind seems to be fighting this.I am so good at fooling my self and my mind so cunning.Looking for another day of progress.Thank you
Absolutely wonderful....keep the alcohol put away ,the rest is recovery from a seemingly hopeless state of body and mind that is a daily reprieve "based" on a fit spiritual condition.Now that you are keeping the substance locked up, time to get into the other 2/3's of our illness the mental and spiritual part that we address through guidance from our Higher Power(whatever that is for you at this stage)working and applying(most importantly)spiritual priciples in the thoughts and actions of our lives ,worked with a sponsor,staying in touch with our support groups(we are a part of it) and learning to give back what was so freely given to you...WE will loose that obsession and compulsion to drink somewhere along the line but we must stay vigilante to the ever present monster just lurking(insidious) waiting for that "fit" spiritual condition to go into complacency(the enemy)!WE continue to show up and keep working not only for ourselves but in order to share our primary purpose of "being of maximum service to God and helping others, WE IN TURN REAP THE REWARDS OF FREEDOM FROM ACTIVE ADDICTION AND LEARN TO LIVE A LIFE' BETTER" than we have ever known. You are not unique up in here,, in 26 1/2 years I personally have never attended a graduation party, but I do celebrate life often with others and daily for myself... ,we continue to do the work or the process begins to cease....... Keep coming back Just For Today ,you don't have drink alcohol....keep letting us know how its going, believe me it does get better ..
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Great stuff. How many meetings have you gotten to? If you do 90 meetings in 90 days and work the steps of the program with a sponsor, like the man says, I will get better, one day at a time.
Your mind certainly isn't your friend right now. Stick with the program and listen to the old timers, and just keep telling your head you are not listening to someone that led you astray.
So true able to let things go and feel for the first time that I am able to surender compleatly. I do know it will come and go but will always come back as long as I stay close to God. Thanks everyone.
Still here and still getting better. I can now see I can be the man I always wanted to be. But I cant do it by myself. Took 53 years to figure that out. And all that time I was sure I was smarter than almost everyone
"I can't do it by myself." Words of wisdom right there -- took me a long, painful time to get that into my skull as well. But, once it was there, and stayed there, good things started to happen. :)
Keep coming back and help me stay sober another day.
"I can't do it by myself." Words of wisdom right there -- took me a long, painful time to get that into my skull as well. But, once it was there, and stayed there, good things started to happen. :)
Keep coming back and help me stay sober another day.
Day eleven and my life is already better than I can rember for a long time. I had so many fears and know idea what to do with them. To day I dont see any reason to be afraid of anything. Just wanted to check in Thanks to all of you.
