Just want to stop hurting

presnem83 · Member

Just want to stop hurting

mikef · MIP Old Timer

It will get better,Just dont use' continue doing the work and I have always found ,for me, reaching out to others in a helping manner,helped me get out of my own head and sharing how I feel moved me forward a day at a time..We didn't become addicted overnite,so remember EASY DOES IT!! Keep coming back okay..peace...

gladlee · Senior Member

There is a line in the BB that I said over and over to myself when I couldn't function, it gave great comfort and guidance to me....

"Just to the extent that I do as I believe He would have me do

and humbly rely on Him

does He enable me to match

calamity with serenity."

And I would focus on my breath, which is how I "feel" my Higher Power is with me.

Get quiet. Get still. Stay in the moment. Success, for me, is just one successful moment after another ((hugs))

SUSIE · Senior Member

I Felt the same way 3 and half years ago......just keep taking it one day at a time and you will see that it gets better. just keep moving forward. Its just keeps getting better. Its ok that you feel out of sorts. We all do at first. So its normal and you will adjust and get stronger.

Mr_David · MIP Old Timer

mikef wrote:
It will get better,Just dont use' continue doing the work and I have always found ,for me, reaching out to others in a helping manner,helped me get out of my own head and sharing how I feel moved me forward a day at a time..We didn't become addicted overnite,so remember EASY DOES IT!! Keep coming back okay..peace...

Amen...just give time, time. I had so many difficulties in early sobriety that drinking did become an option once again. The only thing preventing me from experiencing that pain all over again was the need to explore the vast riches of this sober life rather than the pains of another relapse. I had to give back -like mike said and work on becoming a better person and the 12 steps allowed me the privilege. Please allow yourself some quality time before you make other plans. We will be here to support you every step of the way. We promise...

ChelseaOT · Member

presnem83 wrote:
Right now I like to say I'm between steps 1 and 2. So far, I just....I'm finding it so hard to function like I should just because I just want so badly to stop hurting and in my head I have a strong feeling this isn't the way it should be. Thoughts?

Holy cow brotha I feel your pain! I'm finishing step 1 and it took me a week and a half to write my letter to the universe (since I'm not quite sure I'm worthy to write to God yet) ... yes, this was an AA assignment from my sponsor ... but listen... I'm 26 days in and I feel so much better than I did when I was hung over or anxious because I knew I was making the wrong decisions. I look at others in the meetings and their successes, whether it is financial, spiritual, or family oriented. That gives me hope. I am totally confused as well right now. I actually posted something called Step 1 :: Dear Universe... if you'd like to read it. I think we may be having similar feelings. Every day things are hard, and my mind is friggin goin nuts with the back and forth and how do I act in society, and this and that and blah blah blah. I've recently started meditating (like 2 times lol) ... and that seemed to help. I focus on just being... "re-training" my brain in a way to slow my thoughts and control them. Because lets face it, I think we all have runaway thoughts. So here I go, rambling again... as I do. Hope that helped. We are here and if I find anything that has helped me I'll let ya know. But like everyone else said in response to your post, DON'T DRINK. DON'T USE. It will only set you further back than you already are--I'm sure old timers can attest to this. It is certainly progressive and I'm assuming none of us want to go backwards. Keep your head up and we are all here for one another.

**disclaimer: none of the aformentioned statements can be used against ChelseaOT because she is only 26 days in to the program. THANKS!**

-- Edited by ChelseaOT on Saturday 9th of July 2011 12:19:52 AM

-- Edited by ChelseaOT on Saturday 9th of July 2011 12:20:50 AM

gonee · MIP Old Timer

gladlee wrote:
There is a line in the BB that I said over and over to myself when I couldn't function, it gave great comfort and guidance to me....

"Just to the extent that I do as I believe He would have me do

and humbly rely on Him

does He enable me to match
calamity with serenity."

And I would focus on my breath, which is how I "feel" my Higher Power is with me.

Get quiet. Get still. Stay in the moment. Success, for me, is just one successful moment after another ((hugs))

That is one of the most profound statements the BB makes. Thanks.

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Keep listening to your inner voice that wants to go through with this, and ignore what your head is saying (drink)

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

Every time I would say (and I said it lots) "I don't feel where I'm supposed to be," my sponsor and other folks with sobriety time would tell me "You are exactly where you are supposed to be." It didn't make sense at the time, but it does now. Of course you don't feel right...you are newly sober. Accept that it will take some time. Besides, this is what I call a serenity prayer issue: You can only control "feeling right" to a certain extent. So do what you can and ride it out. Your HP doesn't want you to suffer. That is why he put recovery in your life. Trust.

Once you have that trust in your HP down, you will have the gist of step 2.

-- Edited by pinkchip on Saturday 9th of July 2011 08:37:15 AM

happycamper · MIP Old Timer

When I first got sober and started going to meetings everybody said, " It will get better".

I found out after a little time and working the steps guided by my sponsor that 'it' doesnt necessarily get better . But---I get better. I only get better when I take the suggestions and do the work. And of course in the beginning it was hard, I struggled, I suffered, and I hurt. But---I never picked up a drink. And because of God, my sponsor , the steps, the fellowship I made it thru. And Im still sober today.

Getting and staying sober ain't magic. It doesn't happen automatically. It takes work. And trust me, its all worth it.