I was and starting to come out of a bad depression. I was off work due to the severe depression. I have to admit I was laying in it and not doing enough to get out of it. You know, like take a walk, exercise, fish, or maybe and this is brilliant, call my sponsor. This has only been a couple days ago so prayers are appreciated. In the midst of this I decided to get the f its and came up with a brilliant idea that a bottle of Jaymeson whiskey was a great idea. Now I have an average AA story. Booze causes me incredibly tragic problems. I brought it home. Opened it, decided I did not want to smell like that and hit the ole AA rung of numbers, 1st was my sponsor, 6 numbers later I got a guy I respected and God worked through him to get the booze down the sink. My sobriety date is only Dec. 8, 2010 but I already have my wife and dog back in my life and have never incurred legal problems. So to put it mildly I feel lucky. God does work. If you are new please use your numbers. Use them every day and remember as I do know that it would not have stopped at that one bottle. I still think I need some more step 2 work as buying that bottle was insanity. Just a story I thought I would share with my fellow alcoholics.
Thanks Bobby, for reminding me how the program works, if we choose to work it. I choose to remain sober today via the AA route, despite my unpredictable surroundings. That's where it all began for me, some 10 years ago, and will be a blessing to the very end, thanks be to God and "AA"-ODAAT.
I experienced a similar scenario 10 years ago, where the option to drink presented itself once again. It was the never ending voice of reason that set my mind straight, as they help me resolve the issue without resorting to drinking. "AA" and recovery in general has been that voice of reason for so long now, especially when all else seems to fail. I no longer have look back in shame at all those embarrassing moments that defined my alcoholism for so long. I have a program of recovery and AA is the only viable option for me today, and one that I'm so grateful for -ODAAT.
Thanks, once again, for reminding me that all things are still possible, despite all else. Your experience was another reminder of how insidious our lives can become and the never ending battles we go through on a daily basis. We all know what can lie ahead for any recovering alcoholic if they choose to ignore the obvious -once again. A belly full of booze and a sudden yet undeniable craving for more. Hopefully, I won't go there...for today.
On the flip side of that coin is a measure of humility, a unwavering reality that recovering alcoholics have clung on to for so many years -including myself. AA is that unwavering reality -my friend and the hope of so many recovering alcoholics rests on that ideal. So, I hope you have a better tomorrow and a sober one at that. Thanks, once again, for instilling in me a measure of hope that can get lost in translation from time to time and for keeping the message of recovery green for me, when I need it the most.
~God bless~
-- Edited by Mr_David on Friday 1st of July 2011 09:52:54 PM
Thanks Bobby for sharing a success story. I call it a success story because you were able to recognise your disease, despite the initial urge to want to drink. I think many of us can identify with that. Fundamentally I think you recovery is strong, but start earnestly to work the rest of the steps. This has been my experience. I have been sober over 22 years from that time that I had my experience which was similar to yours. The only difference was I did not phone a sponsor, did not throw the bottle down the sink and I got drunk. Nearly cost me my life. God bless. Gonee.
