For the notice that it's been awhile since I checked in, need that and so appreciate the love.
It's been rough, I am still in recovery, thank God. I have 19 years in. I was married in 2009 and it's been a rough year and a half. The best man at our wedding shot himself playing around with a gun. He had talked of suicide quite a few times in the three years that I knew him so the playing around explanation is really a question mark. He is a friend of my husband's and they'd been brothers/best friends for 20 some years. The shooting happened right in front of my husband, they'd both been drinking. I know y'all understand. Well the aftermath of his death has been catastrophic to our marriage, we are barely hanging on by a thread. We are in couples counseling and he is enrolled in a PTSD course at the VA, he has his first consultation tomorrow as a matter of fact. My husband is alcoholic, bipolar, ptsd and what ever personality disorder there is in the DSM from what I've read. Our therapist gave me reading material/homework to educate myself. Now that I have the explanations for why his the way he is, my dilemna is 'I didn't sign up for this', he should have told me all the issues, including that being bipolar is progressive. I'm sure I have some diagnosis in the DSM as well. So we're not the healthiest pair. I am struggling with the desire to continue on. There is a lot more to this story, I'm sure from his side as well. More later, thanks for listening.
Aloha Nahmi there certainly has been some crises on your side of the fence...Ouch!! Higher Power time and program certainly. Take a look into the Al-Anon side of MIP and see if it has something to offer you at this point. AA didn't prepare me to be the spouse of an Alcoholic/addict. Go check. ((((hugs))))
I was that person...at one time in my life, not for today though -thank God. Alcohol does funny things to people and could have lasting ramifications if not addressed early on. I chose to self medicate for many years and now choose to remain sober, thanks be to God, AA and this forum -one day at a time. Thanks...for reminding me of what can lie ahead for any alcoholic if they choose to ignore the obvious -once again. We'll pray for a blessing on your behalf and continued hope for a better future -one day at a time.
