Since 19th April I've been only getting about 4 hours sleep a night. Been like the walking dead round here. I've tried herbal remedies, like Sominax, to no avail.
i've tried working myself to exhaustion to no avail
I've tried a mug of cocoa at night to no avail
But then, three days ago, I got some information which confirmed my own self belief, from soemone who knows what they are talking about, is independent and has no axe to grind. for the past two nights I have slept from around 11 pm to the alarm at 0730. hey, it's amazing what a relief that was.
Yes, I'm on low dose anti depressants, yes, i've started eating properly, yes, i'm taking moderate exercise, yes, I'm back at work and yes, I have daily plans that are just stretching enough.
Taken all together they all help. The last peice of the jigsaw was the independent expert opinion.
Now as for my wife (who i'm divorcing, or maybe she's divorcing me, we'll have to see how that pans out), I find that she's seeing two other blokes (Platonically........personaly I don't think men are really equipped for platonic, face to face relationships), one has been a friend to both of us for around 35 years, one a friend in fellowship to me for 3 years.......and although I suspect that both of them are leading with their libido (see above in brackets, OK I'm judging them by my standards)....it really doesn't bother me, it's none of my business. I just hope she get's some comfort and happiness out of it and doesn't get hurt. also I hope the two blokes don't get hurt. But y'know what, again it's none of my business.
With all the sh1t that's gone down the past month or so, I'm so relieved that I didn't drink. But man it was a close run thing. Thanks to God who manifested in the form of people in the fellowship (including people on here) and His cunning plan of making sure when I was at the door of the bottle shop that I only had £1 but still let me get drunk on anger, I'm still sober today. Long may it continue.
If pain is the touchstone of growth, I should be 10 foot tall by now.
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
It's so great to hear about you're sleeping patterns and how they've improved over time. It's important to get a sufficient amount of sleep -as we know, so rest up. The consequences of not doing so can not only trigger an irritable demeanor and the discomforts they cause but our allergy (alcoholism) potentially as well. We hope you continue to enjoy the comfort of a good night's sleep -one day at a time.
The "stuff" we go through can leave lasting impressions and have caused many to "break the bond" that this fellowship creates the day we admit our alcoholism. You've not only persevered through this ordeal and have grown spiritually into a better person than you were 5 years ago but you've remained sober through it all as well, so be proud of that. You've shown us what it means to "sober up" and how life does continue on despite the occasional setback. We wish you many more sober yet enjoyable moments -one day at a time.
~God bless~
-- Edited by Mr_David on Friday 27th of May 2011 04:31:13 PM
Yes Bill, WE CAN'T MAINTAIN OUR STRENGTH (PHYSICALLY ,MENTALLY AND SPIRITUALLY ,UNLESS WE ARE ABLE TO REST OUR PHYSICAL BODIES, AND LET OUR MENTAL AND SPIRITUAL PARTS FIND SOME SOLACE...KEEP PLUGIN AWAY DAY AT A TIME!! IN SUPPORT AND PRAYER.......
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