What can I say to you?  Your heart is torn.  Then remember "He bindeth up the broken hearts."  Just feel the tenderness of My hands as I bind up your wounds.

Try to rest on these words, "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

You would think the material things first and then grow into the knowledge of spiritual things.  Not so in My kingdom.  It is spiritual things first and then material.  So to attain the material, redouble your efforts to acquire the spiritual.