It's pretty small but it's a sketch of a proposed tattoo that someone would like. I've suggested that it should wait a year tho' as tats are pretty permanent. Text reads 'it's not who we are that holds us back, it's who we think we're not.'
If anyone can get the meaning of that, then let me know!
Other than that I've had a good weekend. Went for a long hike Saturday, followed by ice cream and raptures over a new Triumph Bonneville T100, then a soak in the bath, a good curry with good company and a trip to see a band (who unfortunately had cancelled.) Today was just a case of idling about, spending some time with sponsees, talking with my sponsor, cooking meals for people (I'm sure that one of the reasons that I'm a popular sponsor is I love to cook for people) talking with my civvy buddy, finding out that my ex wife is working hard to actively dislike me but is gaining acceptance that the divorce will really happen, spending an unexpected hour or two with the someone who wants the tattoo, being helpful and not worrying and having an hour with my feet up and an ice pack on my knee.
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Hey Bill. I took the quote to be to do with my personal reality versus actual reality. Once I lived in a reality in which I had to drink and use drugs and that was as real as my coffee table or the sandwich sitting on it, I could touch it and taste it , it was my reality. Today I'm sober and clean so I know that "my reality" wasn't actually REALITY. I think the quote is about striving to live a life based in reality.
Bill, Love the posts, keep it coming.
Jamie
-- Edited by Jamie D on Monday 11th of April 2011 02:59:20 AM
It speaks to me of the wreckage of the past following me into my "now' and my future view of myself (if I let it). Speaks to deep regrets for my "wasted life", especially as compared to what I am/was capable of and what others (peers without the ravages of the disease) have accomplished, rather than truly feeling blessed for what I have, and can do, as a recovered alcoholic living sober (as opposed to being wasted and/or dead). One of the old friends we saw on this trip (I'm still in NY) was quite focussed on who he is not, and the pain was palpable, and very sad to see. Then again, although he is sober/clean, my hunch is that the 12 step program has become merely surface and by rote, rather than actively practiced on a daily basis. Not to take inventory--just to say I think that affects how we see ourselves-who we are, what we are, what we are not and so on. Our perceptions can create and distort reality, for better or worse.
same person pointed out that he you concentrate on not being something them there's a really good chance that's what you'll be. As in I don't want to be the parent my dad was. You'll become a version of the parent your dad was. If you say i want to be a better parent than my dad was then you probably will be. Focus on what you want to be (sober) rather than what you don't want to be. (a drunk.)
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