Used a little bit of my left over sarcasm the other day when the definition of R.I.D. was asked for and said, for me, "Rice Is Done"...let's eat!! Actually it's not the rice that is done at the moment but me...I'm toast regarding patience, tolerance, not reacting, expectations (reasonable and rational) and spiritual serenity. I haven't got any and I haven't inventoried what is the tap root of it yet. I'm gonna because I don't mention I haven't unless I'm just about to. I've talked to myself about getting it back together and working the solutions and myself either isn't listening or just doing the "yah, yah, yah" thingy and going to the next tripping stone. Tenth step coming up and of course I'm always open for ESH from the membership. I'm listening.
Yup time to go inside once again!! Its amazing ,even after year after year, how we leave the area we know brings us our solution and venture a little farther until we get that "holy out of controlness,unmanageability thingy on us...."Jimi" said it well in Third Stone from the Sun" earth, your people I do not understand"!!! In prayer and support ,great you see yourself coming I do wish you a blessed and productive day. We know where that peace and serenity lies,lets join hands today and reach for that space.....
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
I've recently had bouts of being twisted up in my own head. I discovered I needed to revisit Step 2. I was trying to do all this leg work to uncover, discover and discard to no avail. I realized my solution(in my head) was me. I could fix this. Oh no!
I went back to Step 2 and was reminded that God did and could once again restore me to sanity. I had forgotten that somewhere along the trial. My sick mind was my problem, I can't expect it to be my solution!
Insanity to me= unmanageability, sanity= manageability. My life that is..........
With Step 2 in my heart, Step 3 had new meaning and the maintenance steps 10-12 were restored. I was back to work for my New Employer.............
I am so appreciative of you posting this, gives me comfort knowing I am not alone in being completely derailed and off track.........waiting with inpatience for a medical proceduce that will save my life, hopefully, and holy cow we are only talking about next week, when I woke up I was silently asking God, how do impatience (almost a resentment level) and Glorious Gratitude for the high level of medicine I have at my disposal, you can't mix these two things, so dear God, please help me drop the first part, have been Praying all day and this evening I finally feel free and just plain ole GRATITUDE TO GOD, my HP.
Those darn Character defects sure want their fair share of ranting inside my head like a 2 year old....thank God there is an adult that supervises.:)
Hugs, Toni
PS. What does R.I.D. stand for or did you just make that up?
LOL...Toni I should leave that response to Dean because it was his response to another member that made mine look and sound like a "Laugh In" shot.
Restless, Irritable and Discontent...Alcoholic demeanor which of course has a wide negative benefit.
My slap shot was "Rice Is Done" let's eat!! I certainly do apologize for my attempts to make gest of what others think is more serious.
I'm writing an order to vacate for that person in my head that looks just like me who is out of control. It left for a while this afternoon and I got some peace and quiet and serenity however that was after it tantrumed in grand fashion for a while. "Abandon your self to God as you understand God....Abandon myself to God as I understand God...Repeat and practice, practice, practice. (((hugs)))
