Morning and welcome to another blessed day of life!
During my morning reflections,I remembered back to a really pertinent moment of humility and the lesson of remaining humble.I wanted to share this with you.
I remember back to my first round of Steps 6&7 and how I was feeling and what was revealed. I had really been enthralled in "staying in the solution" felt really "FREE' from purging the wreakage of my past through my 4th & 5th Steps and I was drifting back into that self obsession thing we talk about(the core of our disease)I was feeling "puffed up" and thought well after 25 years of devastation of active addiction and now moving along ,actively living and applying spiritual principles in my life through the steps ,worked with my sponsor I,m getting to be "all that" HMMMM!
Out of the mouth of babes"my daughter,who was then much younger looks at me as I am writing my list of character defects(carried over from my inventory) and all the ones I could think to list...EG need to be right,always hold a grudge ,talk about others,rationalize situations to my benefit,sarcastic,blame others,lackof patience,and so on.. I was at about 40-50 on the page and feeling "'yessiree!! Ain't I something! all my stuff, I'm now.being entirely ready and "humbly gonna ask!..Well my daughter looks over and sees the list and I tell her what Im doing.She looks at it and says"Thatsa pretty good start dad!!! Zing ,oooh that left a mark....
Through the years I always remember that little piece of wisdom that was revealed to me not from my own revealation!!
KNOWING GOD MAKES US HUMBLE,KNOWING OURSELVES,KEEPS US HUMBLE!
As I continually climb the "rope of light" hand over hand ,out of the darkness,day by day,continuing to look inside by allowing God's light to keep me humble so I may continue to serve our primary purpose. that is,.Be of maximum service to God(of your own understanding ) and helping others, I remain ever grateful to those in my support group,those who see how I live and most of all the God of my understanding who 'REALLY" KNOWS ME WHEN NO ONE ELSE IS AROUND,,
If you are new here,or just coming around,.....go deep,inside.....,,do you have an admission to make? is your life ovetaken and though you may not think it, are you powerless over the substance(alcohol) .Join us in a "new way of life" a day at a time, guided by that Power that only need be loving and caring and greater than you, applying our solution ,the spiritual principles of our steps/traditions and concepts worked with a sponsor!We need you as much as you need us ,because we keep what we have by giving it away!!
Just for Today! I ask that God takes my life and my will,guides me in my journey and continues to show me a new way to live! Have a blessed and productive day!!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
This is always something I need to be extra careful of. 2.5 years sober + degrees in psychology = me being a hugely arrogant know it all. I pray I find the right balance of being able to share knowledge and seek it and at the right times.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
Mahalo Mike...very supportive post...the "H" word for me still comes with memory of my elder sponsor who taught me that it wasn't about being humiliated but being teachable. Love that man; that instrument of my God. He also was with me at my last 4th step along with both of my "Spiritual" sponsors...all three guiding me to look for the "tap root" of all of my character defects. I was allowed and it took me two weeks of searching, listening, considering, meditating and of course being "H"umble and then I cleared away all of the deep dirt and rocks and found the tap root...It's the deepest root and I keep pulling on it...loosening it and not watering or fertilizing it. The job is not to cut it off but to extract it completely or else it will regrow from lack of attention; prayer, meditation, meetings, working with others.
This post will help me today and for that I am grateful to and for membership in AA.
