Had a great weekend. Spent some time with my ex-wife and her husband and my daughter. Worked out Saturday and Sunday. Had a nice 3 mile run. Went shopping and bought some new clothes as I've lost 16lbs since my last drink. And capped it all off with a great meeting tonight. It was a small, intimate group. Got a list of sponsors and will start making calls tomorrow.
Another byproduct is that me and my cat are getting much closer.
you dont have to go any further with that, you can save it for your 5th step. And congrats on the thirty days, you never have to do that again if you dont want to
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Since it cost a lot to win, and even more to loose, you and me gotta spend some time just wondering what to choose.
Jasper, I'm inspired by your attitude and outlook. You've made a lot of progress in 30 days. I've seen a transformation already in key areas- humility. The BB tells us humility is the key to being happy, joyous and free. Keep at it! It gets better....
The humility thing is a work in progress. I remember coming to work a couple of weeks into this. I walked down the hall to my office as I always do, but as I sat down, a co-worker rushed into my office and asked me, "Ok... what the hell is going on?" Honestly, I had no idea what he meant. When I asked, he replied that I have been speaking to him every morning for several days and that I just seemed happier. And this type of thing has happened in several other situations, with my ex-wife probably seeing the biggest difference at this point.
I admit that I had been an arrogant, self-centered a$$ much of the last few years. After church yesterday, I was prompted to deal with some areas of unforgiveness I had been harboring. One with a neighbor that is related to my wife's ex and the other, the ex himself. I finally realized that my reactions made things much worse than they could have been. Face to face meetings with these people are impossible, but I did call my neighbor and left a message that I would like to meet him face to face, but if that wasn't possible, I wanted to apologize for my actions. My wife's ex-husband is a little different because there is a restraining order in place and he has an arraignment hearing Friday concerning simple battery charges... in which his 9 year daughter my 10 year old daughter witnessed. I called the DA's office today to see if I could have the charges dropped, but could not. This is a good thing because I can appear at the arraignment hearing and ask the judge to drop the charges and directly accept responsibility for my actions that led to or escalated to the confrontation and other problems we've had. I also wrote a letter to his mother apologizing as she witnessed both confrontation and the hearing.
These are both decisions that I have been pondering for months, but finally got the answers I was looking for.
Something we talked about in the meeting last night is that being an alocoholic is really a blessing once you can come to terms with your alcoholism. At 40, this is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't even remember the person I had been just a month ago. I walked by the mirror in the bathroom yesterday and caught a glimpse of myself and I thought that I actually like the guy looking back at me. He still has A LOT of work to do, but he's heading in the right direction.
To be clear, it's not that I'm in love with myself or think I'm awesome or anything like that.... it's just that in my lowest moments, I discovered that I, as a creation of God have intrinsic value, not the values I placed on myself because of job, money, possessions, other's opinions or actions, etc.
-- Edited by Mad_Jasper on Monday 21st of March 2011 10:59:57 AM
-- Edited by Mad_Jasper on Monday 21st of March 2011 11:01:19 AM
Ok, that's great! A sponsor for me made this journey of life a whole lot easier, especially in the beginning. I had to be willing to do the work, God gave me that willingness. Keep Coming Back!
Had a great weekend. Spent some time with my ex-wife and her husband and my daughter. Worked out Saturday and Sunday. Had a nice 3 mile run. Went shopping and bought some new clothes as I've lost 16lbs since my last drink. And capped it all off with a great meeting tonight. It was a small, intimate group. Got a list of sponsors and will start making calls tomorrow.
One of the best weekends I've had in a while.
Congrats Jasper! I had 30 days this weekend too! YAY FOR US! People at work don't know, but they keep telling me I look great. I guess my eyes aren't bloodshot everyday. Let's keep it up!
