Aloha Jasper...Turn that over also and stay in the will of your HP; which isn't your's or her's. Page 449 of the 3rd Edition of the BB on acceptance. In support.
God is...among other things with you always.
-- Edited by Jerry F on Thursday 10th of March 2011 02:27:29 PM
Sorry to hear, dude. But you're not alone any more. You've got this Fellowship - its program will give you the tools that you need to get through this.
When one door closes, God always opens another ... May your heart, eyes, ears, and mind be open to all the opportunities that will be available to you .. one day at a time regardless of what anybody else says or does.
Better than living in the limbo of not knowing. Now you can focus on you and do some healing. Sorry for the loss though. I know it's not what you'd hoped for.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
Feeling much better this morning. I muddled through the AA meeting last night, went home watched some tv (something I don't very often) and prayed.
Woke up this morning and realized that my last drink (drinks) were three weeks ago today. The feelings I had yesterday, and still today, are normal feelings of loss and faulure. My emotions are no longer distorted by alcohol. It's awesome to feel normally (not necessarily normal). It's ok to feel like this... I don't have to question myself or make excuses for my feelings because they are mine. I'm ok with that.
Congrats on another day, and a sober day. My husband also filed for divorce, three times! and I still feel the brunt of it. He refused to quit bringing home wine for HIS use, and would guzzle it down and go to sleep. I had quit drinking, and did not like the fact they he would not stop his drinking (in order to unwind, and I was the one with the problem. This did not work well with my AA meetings, and his telling me all my new associates at AA were losers and liars. Just venting here.
I'm sorry for your pain too. I so well remember that knock on the door, and door bell ringing and peeking out to see the sherrif's car in the drive. I wanted to puke. Then found out that this cost him $300....x 3. Nothing makes one feel lower.
Hey Jasper! In support and prayer.I have been divorced 2x,and was heading for a 3rd until I surrendered. I look back now and know that I am now where I am supposed to be(married 27 years to my 3rd wife)The pain was overwhelming but I was still active so things just bounced off me(all their fault,etc).Stay close with your Higher Power now, keep your recovery on top of all things and you'll end up where you are also supposed to be.. Pain shared is pain lessened and we are here!!!I can definitely identify!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Jasper, In support. Prayers sent your way my friend. My friend Andrew here puts it best: When 1 door closes another one will appear but the hallways are a b*tch. I've spent a considerable amount of time in the hallways and it's painful.
One thing I have learn in the hallways is: through pain comes willingness and through willingness comes change/growth. Trust your HP. He knows more about what we need than we do. More will be revealed.
Thanks for the prayers and support. God is helping keeping me balanced (not too much anger or sadness). I signed the papers and placed back in the pre-paid envelope to send back to her when I noticed the stamps she purchased were "wedding" stamps. That stung. My counselor asked me to wait a few days before sending the back to her.. at least until our Tuesday night session. So, I will since I feel that God is using that counselor to help me.
My friend is really struggling right now... he is keeping me occupied when my daughter is not here.
That's awful. But now is a time to be so grateful to be sober... the year following when my ex-husband left was when I REALLY started my serious drinking because I was so devastated and there was no one around to notice anymore. I dragged myself down into a hole that it took a very long time to climb out of. By staying sober you are keeping your life much more on track and will have fewer miles to travel to feel whole again, and that will happen, eventually.
