Hi all. I'm a bit messed up at the moment, but still sober. Stress at work, anger, and depression are making life a bit hard. Just feel like sleeping or ranting all the time.
On the bright side, I've got a job interview on Wednesday for a job that will be more my type of thing.
Regarding the Slovak situation at work, I had to work with one of them today. Can't speak much English, but he worked hard and tried his best to be polite and cheerful. I've got nothing against them as humans, just annoyed that the management have decided to bring them in. Must say that they seem better than most of the local workers that have come and gone over the past 2 years!
Car gave up at 06:10 this morning, AA fixed it, (in America I think it's called AAA). Now got two AA's that I call on for help! One new battery later. Shocked £56.90 about $115US! (I could fly to Amsterdam, smoke a spliff and get laid for that price!)
Ah well, got to go, it's way past my bed time.
Apologies to the people whose posts I read and should have replied to and didn't.
One thing I know is: having a drink Won't help and will probably make everything worse.
Best wishes to you all, Hope you have a good and sober day / night.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
Not easy, going through some of this stuff--thank God it passes'--just unwinding from the last two weeks, and there were times--I was right out to lunch. It passed, and things are ok. There were moments I wanted to drink, but we get to know what the consequences are hu?
Had an incident yesterday, I shoulda wallked away from. I didnt. Could have done it a different way. I didnt. Got wrapped up in a bit of insanity, and tried to handle it in a calm manner.
The other guy didnt wish to, so, Ive got a sore arm today. But--I guess it was the only message, he was capable of getting at the time--and there are no regrets. He got the message.
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There are no valleys that Ive ever gone through, that a drink made better.
And youre right. Not taking a drink over some of it, is a big step, in itself.
You need a phone call anytime--let me know-Ile give you a dingle.
Hang tough-and easy does it, my freind.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Chris, I "feel your pain". I work for a 95 yr old worldwide company and it's the worst job I've ever had. Personalities come before company "principals" .
Hang tough...... good luck....... I'll be praying things go your way.
Hugaroonies
Doll
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
Hey Chris, I'm glad you are here venting, that's what we are here for... How many meetings do you get to go to a week? I'm going to one tonight and I really need it. Had to go to the courthouse yesterday on business,so slipped into the office of an AA member who works there. We had a mini meeting, it always helps to vent and just talk to somrone who understands another alcoholic under pressure.
I had to buy a battery for my oooold pickup truck yesterday. My son-in-law took it out on Sunday and I took it down to see if was good. Of course it wasn't,$ 70.00 later for the battery,the guy comes and puts the battery in, airs up a low tire, it's running. I had also spent $60.00 for the state tag, got it on and all I had left to do was drive it to a gas station 3 blocks away to have it inspected, it wasn't shifting gears , so drove it back into driveway. I bought transmission fluid and came home, went to bed early last night. I'm up early, and will start the process all over today....
HALT...hungry,angry,lonely,tired....I was 3 out of 4 yesterday, I wasn't lonely...had to see far more people than I wanted to. Living life on lifes terms can sometimes be the pits, but it can also be the greatest. I will take the good with the bad and live sober today and keep posting and reading.
Chris, I pray we all have a better day today.You know we have a Mexican guy in our AA group who doesn't speak english, sometimes there is someone at the meeting who can interpret for him, he has so much wisdom to share, but the smile on his face is what I like to see, he can light up a room.He's got 4 years sober and it shows. He is also taking an english as a second language class, he deserves a chance.
Thanks for all your thoughts, much appreciated. Think I've just about worn out the serenity prayer from overuse!
Hope everyone is well.
Bye for now.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
