and thought (just) that I could meander around and take a looksee at how things go outside the box. I shouldn't be outside the box. Sigh...it never did take a drink for me to find myself in trouble. It's my "other issues" besides my drinking style and habit that I need to apply program to. I decided to try to live just a couple of hours outside of this spiritual program and ended up making several apologies for it; my spouse, a stranger, HP and myself. The only smart decision I made this morning was to get to the morning meeting and one of the members talked about handing her serenity away to her still drinking and using family and then I shared my ESH which was only up in my head, superficial and conscious and not in my shoes. I shared about learning that no one can take my program, my sobriety, my serenity with out my participation and permission and that in reality it is me that "gives" it away when I don't have to. And then another member I admire shared more and more lucidly than I and after the meeting was over I stepped out of the box and handed my serenity away for several hours of time.
Ate lunch...going to do a 10th step. Trust me this works when you work it...I'm just not the poster boy for program.
Yeah, I made the lives of some people at my workplace a whole lot harder by standing up for something I thought was right. It did turn out they were wrong, but I need to remember to be extra nice to them for a while...
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Render unto Caesar that which is Caesar's, and unto God that which is God's.
Feeling the tingling of a resentment as they are about to release my sister in law after 4 days in ICU for suicide attempt,as she blamed my wife and her 14 year old for her attempt and now going right back into same setting,can't believe CPS/psych's and others involved.....God took it for me as we prayed together,,we are finding the peace in GODS guidance.More will definitely be revealed.....Man its unbelieveable......anyway......Thanks for message Jerry....I quickly jumped back in ..
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Best for me not to self focus for now Mike...think I'll talk to my HP and divert my intentions your way and with your Sister-in-law and family. I'm with you on the second step at the moment and realize that there isn't anything in God's world that is too large or heavy for HP to carry.
I'm now back in my box with the flu on top of it sooo I'm stickin around.
