Morning,Blessings to you on another day of "life"! I was looking "inside" in a little reflection and an old slang term came to mind as I looked back at some of my different periods of working my process.So many years I had spent "two stepping"(1st step and part of 12th) and wondering why everything seemed okay but just couldn't put my finger on the feelings of unrest deep in my heart. Coupled with Complacency(the enemy of those with substantial freedom from active addiction)and my lack of applying spiritual principles (all of them) in "all my affairs was beginning to take its toll.You know the kids are run amuck,work bites out loud,everyone is getting on your last nerve,my commitment  to push on even when things were still continually falling apart was weak, I was working day and night and still so broke I couldn't pay attention,and I was drifting from my "concious contact with my Higher Power" I'm not sure where and when the spiritual 'AWARENESS" kicked in but Im sure glad it did.By revisiting all my step work ,applying all principles in my life.becoming service oriented,sharing again as if my life depended on it,using my sponsor and started really showing up,even when I didnt feel like it(most important for me) I got my backside back to meetings,the real change was becoming evident.Still being blasted by "life on life's terms but able to not act on impulse(insanity) and able to 'turn over" to help alleviate me being  the "fixer of all things"!!!Like it is said 'the best intentioned of us " can fall prey to this scenario and during this period that "cunningly baffling and insidious illness is just hanging on the corner waiting to drop in!!!!So each day I remain diligent,continue to turn over to the care of and seek the will of my Higher Power and His power to carry it out..Life is still good,all is well,but the difference is "no more 2 stepping" I am much bettwer than I was but I still ain't that well!! Would never want to be...Have a blessed and productive day!!