Hi Bill recovered alcoholic, so here I am coming off disability.after 10 months. physically i am some what better. however 45 pounds heavier doesnot help in the trades. right away i wanted to blame .point the finger. you know copping a resentment. and some fear was gripping me. here is the deal because of a 12 step program of recovery. i once again get a chance to sincerly take a position. and all sorts of things happen. first i do not have to worry.god did not bring me this far to stop now. he is in the impossible bussiness. so i am in need of a new direction for employment. and a good freind reminded me that i have 19 plus years of practicing honesty unselfishness love and purity.actually those are the results of me working these steps. redefining myself for a career change maybe some thing that has been overdue. Putting soberiety first and let god solve all the impossible situations.he knows my heart and he has always made a way. I have tapped into a power that has no limits.as a direct result of this program. I serve him and perform his work well . And he finds a way. He will always do for me what I can not do for myself. I have made 100k less this year . And I know that that relying and trusting him.is still what I have to do. I remember running my life into the ground. Sober. He has always provided what I needed. I want to say its looking kinda bad.I am not homeless I have food .I have my kids in my live freinds who help me thru .who tell me the truth to help me save my life.I am a recovered alcoholicmgod has restored me to sanity. Material sucess was never promised. I have to remember that. My soul is smiling.at the thought of my relationship with him who has all power. So growing spiritually is not comfortable .I thank god the this last year. And all the ones before. I entered into his presence. Everyday he is so awesome I get so excited my heart could burst. Thank god for a 12 step program. I never relied on the insurance company to take care of me.a little disapointed that I am not where I was physically .but smoking for 26 years will cause all the problems I have now.and god took that obsession away to. I put some steps on it. I am in a way better place now that I had the time the spend helping drunks and giving away every thing that was si freely giving to me. I also get to help my mom who is elderly and needs small things done around her house. And she even let's me drive her in there big old ford.lol that took along time but she knows now that I won't steal it. Or her stuff. Gos is in the impossible bussiness.
Thanks for sharing!!! You inspire me! I know my HP always provides for me too when I stay sober and work the program. I usually become complacent and relapse and things go downhill.. I believe God still has a purpose for me and hes letting me know that alcohol is not part of it.
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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
LOL, so glad your Mum knows you won't steal her car or stuff now! my Mom passed away in April so i am missing her. this program gave me my life back, helping me become a better person, a better daughter, a better mom, a better Grandma, a better friend, a better worker. i am still having trouble in the wife department..... could use some solid prayer, there. anyway, i have less money than i have ever had but more joy. and i know why and thank God every day for this program and for you all that are here helping me stay sober. hugs sheila
