If i dont ask god to divorce my thinkin upon awakening, im going to roll right in to blame self pity self seeking , dishonesty the lie i believe that i dont have to do this when the results are the same every time when i dont do a proper 10 and get my 11out there -that im going to flip out dry drunk style i need someone to blame itz all about me my comfort , im mad at this person for whatever if you would have only did what i wanted life would have been great, laugh refuse to talk become irritated or become violent anyone can increase the list an ad infitnum. I become the tornado roaring thru the lives of all who love or support me. I Have to get these steps and a GOD of my understanding in my life or ELSE, the spiritual life is not a theory we must live it ! everyday is a day when we must carry the vision of gods will into all of out activities.. Thy WIll be Done - NOT MINE! Help me be more of you , and Less of me , what you woul have me be what U would have me do less like myself more of you God may i continue to try and do thy WIll. I had to be badly mangled to really commence to solve my problems, hence get the steps in my life as pg. 43 second full paragragh says Most alcoholics not SOME have to be badly mangled before they really commence to solver their problems colon cancer didnt have enough power only god. i had to exhaust all ideas to the point of hopelessness ! before i became willing to make a begining, not everyone has to travel that road of alcoholic torture pain and misery GET a Sponsor Have Faith in Something other then U , get With a support group GO TO BIG BOOK MEETINGS / DISCUSSIONS / The LEAD MEETINGS ARE OK FOR HARD DRINKER / THINKERS . But If you are one of us a HOPELESS ALCOHLIC Where TO Drink Is 2 DiE , Then U Aint Got a Choice Unless yu wanna be badly mangled and travel the road of pain and alcholic torture then by all means , sit down and Clap and collect coins after yu hear a good drunkin LOG thats it and thats all i have to say god bless 1 b Out! FIND A SPONSOR YOU KNO U CANNOT , MANIPULATE THIS IS IF U REALLY WANT HELP FROM YOR THINKING THATS KILLING YU, YOU WILL GET A REAL SPONSOR WITH 12 STEPS AND KNOWLEDGE OF THE BIG BOOK OF AA AND KNOS HOW TO APPLY THE INFORMATION IN THE BOOK AND THE STEPS NOT ONE THAT WILL TALK PRETTY TO U AND TAKE U PRETTY PLACES , BUT ONE WHO CARES ABOUT YOUR LIFE MORE THEN YOUR FEELINGS!!!! MAY YU FIND GOD AND A SPONSOR NOW!!!! No One Enjoys pain? i dont.
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Trust god work the 12 steps keep god close Love the ones u got and pray for all those who need prayers, peace. God Bless !
Glad that you are focusing on meetings and the Big Book. It sounds like you are on a good path. I hope that your cancer is in remission.
Now I'm asking my HP to help relieve me of my judgmental/nit-picky attitude about correct spelling/punctuation. ;)
Welcome to the message board, I'm sure you will find a lot of good advice and support here. There are a number of people who post regularly, have lots of sobriety under their belts and are always generous with the responses.
Keep coming back, Full Flight. progress not perfection is what our goal is. we cannot do it on our own. HP, sponsor, Big Book, AA friends and fellowship help us get out of our alcoholic mindsets and into real, purposeful living, and JOY!!! i have joy now that i never had before. so i know it works. hugs jj/sheila
One of the most important things, that I heard early on was, "Your mind is not your friend" and "When an alcoholic is up in his head, he's in a bad neighborhood".
One of mine is When I say "I think" if I listen closely I can hear God laugh. FF you are sounding more in one piece...centered; God centered. Some of your stuff is very very right on for me and my program...WOW some of the anesthesia wore off!!
When you do the DO...you get to apply the divorce of your thinking with your HP.
thx il continue i have no choice but to. i have to embrace the love, grace mercy god has shown and given me. im nothing without god in my life and the 12 steps just a dry drunk if not treating my dicease daily this must continue for a lifetime. inner peace and spiritual relief at one with my creator is something everyone needs to get to experience but it takes work i have to continue to strive for humility , and continue to watch for selfishness dishonesty resentment and fear (when) these CROP we ask god to remove them at ONCE! peace god bless
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Trust god work the 12 steps keep god close Love the ones u got and pray for all those who need prayers, peace. God Bless !
Resently on bended knee .apon awakening with consistentcy I have an opportunity to open my mind to the a solution . I default on self pity the lie that I can fix me dishonesty or ask god to make me look good .lol .my disease will always lie to me . As I started to pray on my knees I could not breathe thru my nose because my hands stunk like the breakfast I started preparing. I made contact and I sore I heard god laughing. Relieve me of the bondage of self. Lol.on my own I will screw it up.with His help grace and mercy I get to take a look at my life to see where I do not disserve. My. Soul starts to smile . No hocus posus. Just done the work !keep sharing your thinking and feelings ! If nothing else it will be exposed .
