We are alcoholic because we have the disease of alcoholism. We don't cause it, can't control it, and can't cure it. We learn to put it in remission and work to keep it there. Psychiatric disorders only complicate things...if you are having suicidal thoughts/feelings, it may be time to see a professional while you also work your 12 step program. That is just another part of the good self-care that we MUST practice in order to stay sober and be reasonably content.
I always ask myself the question, "why am I an alcoholic? I know I didnt cause it, I was always an alcoholic. from the day I was born I was an alcoholic. It is just hard to accept. I know I am not alone in this, but.......
