"We alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals-usually brief-were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period we get worse, never better."
~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, More About Alcoholism, pg. 30~
Listening to George Jones music, didnt help either. 'Keep thinkin of that song :"Theres a tear, in my beer"
Had to throw all that cryin music out. Kinda went with the addiction. Along with marriages, divorces, jails, padded cells, breaking out in spots (all over the world)
Today its Rock and Roll Baby!! And the Bee Gees-- so ---lets rock on!!
Been arrested a lot of times in the past. NOW--Lets arrest IT!
Hey Rick?? DONT THINK!! hahaha
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Sure can relate with the music. Some songs can take you back in time...a place you would rather not be. Any-one heard Gretchen Williams new song All Jacked Up? She talkes about the stuff ones does while having a little too much to drink. Song hits home!!!
The times I was in jail (how emberassing as a female) was because I was trying to make a point. Able to argue a topic to death!!! Who really cared anyways. Going to jail has a way of destroying our intergrity. Jesus I volunterred with Big Brother Big Sister, Had a exchange student for 9 months durning my drinking. If the organization would of found out I was a drunk they would of thrown me out of their programs. And the shame for our families!!!
Leasons learned on trying to shove my point of view down someones throat!!!One word to describe this kind of thinking.EGO!!!!
Have A Great One All
Nancy Jo
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Life is full of ups and downs
But the faces of love will
ease the pain and suffering
from:My Mother
Yes, it is a progressive disease, if I pick up today...I will be back right where I was over 20 years ago.I don't want to go there, so I ask God to keep me sober today, lead me, guide my steps.
It's funny when I started asking Him to do that I quit going to the old hang outs, looking for the friends I drank with. They would still look me up, but as long as it was in my territory ,I felt safe. I love those people, most of them are alcoholic, attaction rather than promotion.
Music, well, did anyone see the Eagles special last Sunday night. Talk about going back in time, I could almost smell the alcohol, the weed,see the guy sitting across from me or dancing to each song back then. It was refreshing to hear the new songs, "One Day At A Time", about recovery, it was really good.
I don't listen to the old music much, it takes me back, brings me down and I don't need most of the memories.There are a few I still listen too. Last night my husband was out in the rent house listening to all the old stuff, he was very drunk, it was very loud.I was happy I could leave as I do every night to stay with my Mom.
I had to change my playground, playmates,probably should have changed husbands a long time ago, and I have to do this all one day at a time.
