I went to a meeting yesterday. It was a good one. Really hit home. I'm seeing the utter devistation of this disease and that I've had it for so long. I'm deeply hurt...destroyed by the way I've been tricked into being someone I'm not most of my life. I'm a shattered man. My wife and children are gone. I'm going to lose our home. But every day I see more and more how alcoholism is like a terrible cyclone that rips through our lives. I'm going to pick up the pieces and move on and have some form of life I never knew before I'm certain of that. However, right now i'm an empty depleted man inside who feels horrible that he's been the mechanism for this devistation to myself and my family. I'm asking people to pray for us please we need your energy desparately and I need help to learn to forgive myself so I can heal. I'm having trouble living with myself these days and the residuals of the drink are still rearing their heads.
Prayers in the air!! REMEMBER THAT WE WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL YOU LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF.There is a solution and you can find a new way to live.Continue to show up,take suggestions,get a sponsor and do the work and like us,you can begin to live ,one day at a time.Keep coming back,....we were also in the grip of a continuing and progressive illness whose ends are always the same,jails,institutions,deriliction or death.. You have made the admission of your powerlessness and unmanageabiltity and hopefully accompanied by "total surrender"..I can only suggest you continue to show up and more will be revealed!!l
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
We are here for you, as are those in the rooms. I have met so many people who felt just like you, had similar experiences and are now leading happy and productive lives. You can't undo what's been done, but you have choices going forward. Keep going, find a sponsor and work the steps. It's the road to recovery. I am sending prayers and positive energy your way!
Heya. I started over completely when I came into AA also. It feels like crap, but that is where you HAVE to start....the bottom. Good news is that the steps you are taking will just lead to things getting better. You were probably not happy with the old life anyhow or you would not have been drinking all the time. Breath deep and focus on what you have and not what you have lost. You will be okay. The promises come true....sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, but they do materialize if we work for them.
Mark
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
You got the prayers typO including your family that it is also trying to bring down. You're on the other side of it now and when you do the opposite you get the opposite of what you have earned up until now. Don't let go of that story you just shared...share it in your meetings because that will save another drunks life as it has in the past. I've been where you are at now but found the promises of AA recovery to come true when I stopped drinking and restarted my life doing the opposite. Loosing the booze and the material interruptions along with the relationships was what my HP used to get my attention or else I would still be doing the same thing over and over expecting different results or dead.
Prayers you got. Keep coming back and working it...
Hello, and welcome! Every day that you dont drink , You will get better ... if you work the program with a sponsor and take the steps as described in the book.
hi this is just to let you know im thinking of you, when i came to aa \i was broken and like most of us i just wanted to die , i could not find a way out of all the problems that come with my drink problem and the more i thought about what to do the more i drank and the more confused and broken i became , the first thing i got out of my first meeting was hope ,i did not remember much about it but the sharing and caring made me realise that for the first time i had met people like me , that was important for up till then i did not think there were others (like me), they didnt offer me money or to sort my marraige problems, but they got me sober and more so they helped me stay sober, so hang on in there a day at a time get to as many meetings as possible . my sponcer told me that what i said at meetins was not as important as what I heard ,it took me a while to be able to take things in but it does come in time. my thoughts and prayers are with you god bless, david
