August 22 When we developed still more, we discovered the best possible source of emotional stability to be God Himself. We found that dependence upon His perfect justice,forgiveness, and love was healthy , and that it would work where nothing else would. If we really depended upon God, we couldn't very well play God to our fellows nor would we feel the urge wholly to rely on human protection and care. Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions p.116
All my life I depended on people for my emotional needs and security, but today I cannot live that way anymore.By the grace of God, I have admitted my powerlessness over people, places and things. I had been a real "people addict"; wherever I went there had to be someone who would pay some kind of attention to me. It was the kind of attitude that could only get worse, because the more I depended on others and demanded attention, the less I received.
I have given up believing that any human power can relieve me of that empty feeling. Although I remain a fragile human being who needs to work A.A.'s Steps to keep this particular principle before my personality, it is only a loving God who can give me inner peace and emotional stability. Daily Reflections p.243
Sometimes the cost of my emotional stability is trudging the road to happy destiny. It is trudging this road when I know that I will reap the biggest rewards of my emotional stability. This is when I encountered something in myself that has been playing in the back of my mind and is now surfacing.
Because I believe that I will not be given anything that I can't handle, I can face all that is revealed about myself.
I am going through an enormous conscious level of learning about why I have behaved the way I have. Even though I have been consciously aware of what has happened; the feelings associated with some circumstances were not connected. They are now connecting.
I don't believe in ignoring my feelings. The roots of all my evils have been attributed to my feelings. By taking my inventory and a daily inventory, I have had more days of emotional stability than not in my sobriety.
I just hafta let GOD drive the bus and things are pretty stable
We usually conclude the period of meditation with a prayer that we be shown all through the day what our next step is to be, that we be given whatever we need to take care of such problems. We ask especially for freedom from self-will, and are careful to make no request for ourselves only. We may ask for ourselves, however, if others will be helped. We are careful never to pray for our own selfish ends. Many of us have wasted a lot of time doing that and it doesn't work."
~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg. 87~
