Well, in one hour it will officially be 10 months.
I just re-read some of the posts I made on here from the past, and it brought me back to a place I never wish to go again. It reminded me how much suffering I really went through in addiction.
I'm not perfect by any means, progress not perfection for sure, but i'm in the best spot in my life i've been in ages. But the basics still remain true, one day at a time. That's how I have to do it. To say the thought have completely gone away would be a lie, because they haven't. But, when they happen today, I remind myself where it would lead to if I decided to pick up again, and of course it's not pretty. I surround myself with people in recovery, and I know where I belong because those are the people I love being around and spending time with. I feel safe around people in recovery and I can relate to them, and I know they can relate to me.
I never thought in a thousand years I could or would actually get sober. No smokes, no drugs, not even a tylenol in 10 months. Feels pretty amazing. I have to take personal inventory on a regular basis and ask myself if i'm being honest today with myself and my friends about what's going on in my life. If i'm doing things I can't talk about, I know i'm straying off the path of recovery and I make steps to share with my friends and correct my behavior. I try my best to protect my recovery today, because it's without a doubt the most important thing in my life today.
Congratulations everyone on their personal recovery, i'm pretty grateful to be where i'm at today. Not everyday is an easy day, but this life is cake compared to addiction. What a horrible place to be. I never wish to go back. I hope everybody here takes another 24, and i'll take one too. :)
Aloha Paul and Congradulations on the 10 months...300+ days!! Awesome commit- ment to your own recovery. When you wake up tomorrow after you say the 3rd step prayer and offer gratitude to the HP of your understanding...Repeat the process and then give it away to another struggling drunk. ((((hugs))))
Great!! I remember being sober 10 months .. approaching that ever significant year mark. Keep up the good work Paul. It is soooooo well worth the efforts.
Hey no copping short!!!! Just kidding,:),,that is such a blessing, congratulations,the early times are so important to establish your desire to stay sober.I remember another sharing one night and saying "listen I appreciate all you guys with years of time free from active addiction but I need to know how you did it early on,6 months,2 years etc....It was so true that we must always keep in mind that it only takes"one bad decision " to reinstitute our pain and be off to the races again!!Just for today you don't have to drink!!!!Thanks for stopping in to help us stay sober one more day!!! I pray you are working in the solution,our steps,not drinking is the "must" part but life changing incorporation(is that a word:)),worked with a sponsor,will bring you to a totally "new way to live"!!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
This makes me happy to read this, and I'm looking forward to my 10 months. As it is, I'm only at five days, but hey, I'm 33 years old and I've got plenty of time to enjoy this newfound feeling of waking up NOT hung over and this weekend actually seemed to last twice as long as they usually do...because I REMEMBER it. You're an inspiration, and so is everyone else on this forum!
((hugs!)) Amy
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Awesome....keep it up!! Gratitude and humility.......may we never be brought to the bottom again!! Happy recovery, day by day to you..and all of us miracles in progress!!