Hey all, I posted a little about what's my day was like below in response to Rick. I didn't talk about today being my 22nd wedding anniverary. My husband and I have never really celebrated it, we did on our 20th , took the family to the mountains and stayed for a few days in a nice cabin. It was beautiful, and so peaceful. We had fun with the kids and granddaughter, so I chose to think about that anniversary instead of this one. That one he had about 5 months of sobriety and life was good for a few months.
Today I am grateful he is in the hospital, and I pray he will allow them to help him. I know that it is up to him. There are times I just want to walk away , sometimes it seems my sobriety is tainted by his drinking, and than I have to get that out of my head and do the next right thing.For me that is living life on lifes terms,thank God I'm sober today and keep it simple.I am not a simple person, I'm very complex, analyse everything and everybody.Why, why not, what do mean, what was that look for, on and on.....This program has been a life saver to me.
I admit I'm powerless, I believe a power greater than me can restore me to Sanity???(Whatever that is), and I turn my life, my will, my whys, over to God.
I will go to a meeting in a couple of hours,I'll listen, I'll share, I'll laugh, maybe cry, and I'll hug and be hugged...I am doing this day.
And you have a wonderful weekend as well! Take yourself out to dinner for your anniversary...or send yourself flowers. At least then you get the ones you want,huh??
Hi Gammy. Cant get the words out, that I feel inside, Re what your going through.
I guess the only way, I can explain it is, --when someone else, I care for is hurting inside--I understand the hurt, I feel the hurt, and I truly know what some of those feelings are, having been through some of it.
Ide like to load everyone on this board up, and just bring all of us to you, with love in our hearts, and hold your hand as you go through, one day at a time, what youre going through.
Each and every one of us on this board, is right beside you. I can almost guarantee that. We love you--and we reach out through our Higher Powers to be with you, in any way we can.
Im also sure that if you lived within a reasonable driving distance that some of us would be at youre door standing by you also.
I know I would be.
Take care of yourself our freind. Youre doing that. My thoughts are with your husband also. I guess God is the only one that can control it all.
Youve got my email-and I think my phone number--just another support-that is just saying Im here for you, my freind.
Hang Tough girl. Hang tough. We love you.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Thanks for your kind words guys. The meeting was just what I needed to get me out of me. The people at this meeting are all on parole and they just don't let me wallow in self. Soooooo, I had a great life on lives terms meeting.
I'll just day dream about the flowers Cheri, a huge bouquet of mixed flowers, roses, daisies,a few carnations, those miniture iris,lots of babies breath, yeah, I can smell them already. Dinner, well that would be steak and lobster, candle light, and a healthy sober husband with those big blue eyes gazing into my brown eyes ....Ive always had a vivid imagination. It helps in the rough times.
Phil, you are just a sweet guy, awww... I know you don't want to admit it . That tough guy image is just a big front. Thanks again.
I did a noon meeting. It did the same for me, got me out of me! We all have things, the accident and the dad were doing me in. We have to accept everything, not necessarily like it AS you said, gotta get ou tof me and my head. Just woke up and the tape started playing. Read my morning med. and a couple other things. Now I'm here, but I think I really need a coffee. I go out every morning for coffee, not because i can.t make it. Because I need to go see some people, there not program people, but there goood people. It's just me, but it helps me. I may go to church today. Went last week and it was nice. Have to see what the day brings.
