The things that I loved the most was the things that my God hated the most.
So for many years I lived outside the grace of God. I drank what I wanted to drink and I did what I wanted to do. I never hated God but I just could not find His power working in my life. I longed to have what my sponsor had and many men of God that I had come into contact with. But I was a drunken sod until the day came when my God also gave me a chance to have a spiritual experience. I was so excited that I went and told all my work mates. I got drunk again and I became so despondent that I drank to forget all about AA. This went on for 4 months until I was so wasted that only a spiritual experience could save me again. Once again AA was there.
On my re-entry to AA I kept quiet and worked the steps as suggested in the BB.
Before I knew it Ialso had a spiritual awakening. My obssessive, compulsive behaviour patterns had left me and thus began a spiritual journey, despite myself and my sick emotions.
His grace is sufficient for me.

-- Edited by gonee on Thursday 7th of October 2010 11:25:14 AM