Hey everybody, Well the rollercoaster just keeps moving, the miracle is I'm still sober and I haven't thrown-up . I did have a migraine last night.
In the middle of packing up the house, I had to drop everything yesterday morning and drive my husband to the city 100 miles from us, to be checked in to a hospital to be treated for severe depression, it took until this morning to get him admitted. I drove home last night and he stayed at our daughter's , I drove back this morning and he was admitted about 1 pm. It's been a hard two days, but I thank God he is where he is and pray he will get the help he needs. I will not drive back to see him until Sunday, got to take care of me and my Mom.
I have had to deal with depression since I got sober, it was a hard thing to admit and harder to seek help.But I'm glad I did. There are so many differing opinions on the subject in AA that I just take what I like and leave the rest.I was worth taking care of and grateful for the outcome, which was to feel like I still wanted to wakeup, get up and show up.I haven't had to take meds. for quite sometime, but if I ever need to I will not hesitate.
I thank God for one day at a time. I thank Him for not letting me see all that is going to happen in advance, that all I have to deal with is today. He's always there , even when I try to take control and lose my grip on the handle.
Rick, I'm still praying for your granddaughter and your family.
I have felt the thoughts and prayers you guys have been sending my way. Thanks! I've read a few post tonight and will try to catch up tomorrow. I went to a great AA meeting tonight, just what I needed. The topic was our changed personalities since we got sober?
Thanks for checking in. I miss ya so much when you're gone. Saw my grandma sponsor the other day...she reminded me of something she told me a long time ago...just do the next right thing that God puts in front of you to do and let Him worry about the outcome. It seems to help when we're going through the crap.
Hey Gammy!! As Cheri has said-youre a missing link, when youre not here on a daily basis. You are a part of.
Youve been another part also, of adjustments, in this kids life over the last few months, and been there, when reality check inventories were being processed, and patiently accepted. I will be forever grateful to you for that.
We are here for you, in thought and prayer, as you journey and step forward, one day at a time, with whatever it is, your Higher Power has in store for you.
Have the best day you can Gammy--for you. I dont know how we get through some of these tests sober--but thank God we do. Thinking of you, our freind. Thinking of you.
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And Wendy? That looks like your ex? My question is not "What were you thinking girl?
Its "What the "H" were you drinking?" hahaha.
Have a good day guys. Truck on!
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The next question that Im looking for an answer is "What the "H" am I doing up, at 5 in the morning? More caffine!!!
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
don't have much time so keep plugging it will get better!!!
I'm sooooooooooo grateful my grandaughter is out of icu. Going down to see her right now. Gotta pick up my wife, she wants to come home for a night. I can relate to the driving and the hours. Made a meeting yesterday, first of the week. Hope to do one this eve, or tomorrow mornig. Read a story out of BB at the meeting yesterday. It said something to the effect if your doing the right thing you will feel peace and serenity!! I must be doing the right thing!! I feel that after 20 cups of coffee!! You take care and easy does it !!
