I realized yesterday that drinking was just something I couldn't stop on my own.I told my daughter in law that I needed help &she said call AA for a meeting &I'll go with you.So we went &God I feel sooo much better for taking that first step!I have the love of my family to help me through.I have two brothers who are refomed alcoholic,so they know just how I feel .God please help me get through this . I had a rough night trying to sleep &today I just feel sick in waves. And I'm losing time at work,that I can't afford to lose. Looking forward to chatting, take care.
When we are able to admit complete defeat it can be frightening but it is the foundation we build our new lives on! Our freedom is in knowing we do not have to drink again, it takes awhile for some of us to also realize their life is unmanageable, the 2nd part of Step 1.( you first make an admission and surrender))You no longer have to live a life of insanity depravation and at worst death(physically,spiritually or mentally!)Remember also ,the steps of "life"(OUR SPIRITUAL SOLUTION) don't just work by magic, we learn to live them...I can feel your joy and excitement and your expression of humility to ask the God of your understanding to guide you in this journey! In support and glad you are here.Welcome to "learning to find a new way to live"one day at a time!!!I can only suggest making meetings,listening for a sponsor and giving back to others who are still sick and suffering through service,how one helps another!
-- Edited by mikef on Tuesday 28th of September 2010 01:49:04 PM
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Congrats and welcome! I know that if I use the tools that this Fellowship has given me, I WILL stay sober for another 24 hours. 24 hours at a time, that's this Fellowship is all about.
Awesome blurple. Simply awesome. You have made a decision that can and will profoundly change your life, if you let it. I remember how tough it could be in the early days, but keep on trudging ahead...it get's so much better in no time. Just remember that you don't have to quit drinking for the rest of your life, we only have do it ONE DAT AT A TIME. I can tell you from personal experience that God can and will help you get through this. Trust that he only wants whats best for you and believe that He can make good things out of the bad stuff. You have my prayers and support.
Well done Deb! When I first got sober I couldn't even do 24 hours at a time. I had to just think about the next 6 hours then the next 6 hours. You can do this with the help of your HP. I remember how it felt at first. It is hard to sleep and even concentrate at times, but it does get better. I think I could sleep thru a hurricane now. My kids tease me on how hard it is to wake me up if they want to talk to me after 9 p.m.. I am glad you got to a meeting. You will find support and love in AA. Everyone there know exactly how you feel.
You have the love and support of millions many of whom you have not met and have to work it just the way you now do. We're in support. Keep coming back, get a BB, go to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps, Trust God - clean house - help others. Simple program for complicated people. (((((hugs)))))
Losing time at work vs. gaining a life.....hrm....I would give up any job to be sober. I would eventually get another job but I am not sure I could get sober again and I don't want to find out. Keep it in perspective. You are doing great and you made it past the hardest part. Don't look backwards and keep it up.
-- Edited by pinkchip on Friday 1st of October 2010 08:07:50 AM
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!