Well the title says it all. I went to the party and had one lousy beer. I convinced myself that I was just to nervous to be at this party without drinking. There were many more people than I anticapated.
Popped open the beer took some gulps...looked at the can and told myself ... OK what are you feeling?...are you really less nervous?...
does it taste good?....I am bigger than this can of beer!!!, I just kept thinking I AM BIGGER THAN THIS CAN OF BEER!!!
I have been feeling so great not drinking,(is whats going thru my mind)
I didnt even finish the can of beer!!!
Screw it, I want to be Happy and Sober!!!!!
Thank you to anyone who said a prayer for me, I prayed all the night before, talked to God on and off on the way to the party.
I just know God had a part in all this.
He gave me the strenght to do what I needed to do.
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Life is full of ups and downs
But the faces of love will
ease the pain and suffering
from:My Mother
Congratulations on being strong! You did well. I hope to someday have that same strength in a similar situation. My wife is going to a medical gathering tomorrow evening (spouses invited). It will be an open bar. I will instead be at an AA meeting. I will be thinking about how I am missing out on free beer the whole time, but I hope I can also feel proud of myself for passing it up for the first time.
Hi Nancy. Well-youre not alone.:) Many of us have had to trip, stumble, fall, and pick ourselves up to start anew, into another day. It just goes to prove hu, just how cunning baffling and powerful this disease, really is. and how in our minds we can rationalize, and make ourselves truly beleive that we are in control.
This step one is a big step--took this kid a long time--bouncing in and out--to fully accept it.
Didnt think that I was completely powerless over anyone, or anything. And manage my life? Yaaa-gimme a hammer--Ile manage it. DOH!
You got back here. A lot dont. We dust ourselves off, and step forward once more.
We grow through and learn by our shortcommings, and mistakes. Welcome back!!
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Nancy Jo, Thanks for your honesty, I think everyone has given you great advice. Get to a meeting, read all the AA literature you can get your hands on, and talk to program people. How it works ''Honesty, Openmindedness, and Willingness"...
You did what you needed to do and today is a new day in recovery, one day at a time.
Good for you. Get right back on that horse........ I found something that works for me, TELL a few ppl who you're close with & trust that your an alcoholic. It works wonders for me! You wouldn't drink in front of your AA friends, chances are you won't drink in front of those who know either.
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