I've been battling alcohol for quite some time now.. I decide I want to quit at night as I tuck my two babies into bed, then by morning my resolve is less, by the end of the day, I'm cracking open a bottle of wine, drinking it all and some.. and saying tomorrow I'll quit.
Tomorrow comes and the same thing happens. I really don't want to drink, I really don't.. I'm not sure why I do..
I feel awful when I drink, physically and more importantly emotionally. I don't want my kids to grow up remembering how mom was always drunk or "drinking"..
So I've come here in hopes of getting some support from those who have been here
Don't feel alone, we've all been there. Welcome and keep coming back theres alot of good people here. Theres experience strength and hope here.. If you want to quit, you should find a AA meeting and just go there. Introduce yourself. I guarntee you'll be welcomed. You have to put the drink down to stop. The compulsion can be unreal, I know been there.
Pretty much the same story with me. When I first darkened the door of a face to face AA meeting, just 44 days ago after drinking for what quickly turned into 25 yrs, I thought my life and my emotions were a mess because I drank. I had the same feelings of remorse and guilt when I looked at my son and all the people who I love and who love me and vowed over and over and over to stop. I couldn't stop by myself. I have since learned thru AA that I drank because my life is a mess. it has always been for as long as I can remember. I thought AA was going to teach me how to stop drinking, but what it's teaching me is how to live sober. And the feelings of guilt and remorse are beginning to diminish. They tell me as time goes on I never have to live with those feelings again if I chose. And I believe them!
If you think you may be an alcoholic, I pray you will seek help. This is a cunning, baffling, powerful illness with no "cure" , but with help from other sober drunks it can be a wonderful "medicine".
Keep coming to this message board. I say it all the time, there are some awesome folks here with a lot of quality sobriety who are willing to share with you and help in anyway they can.
Glad you stopped by. If you want to stop drinking, there are heaps of us here doing it one day at a time, right here beside you.
When you come to the place where you make the decision, it is a good feeling when you also see how many folks step up to let you know you're not doing it on your own.
Turn one day sober into two, and your on your way.
No new advice to add except keep coming back here. We are here to help. You have recieved good info from the people above me. We know it's hard but for your kids it's got to be worth it.
Bye for now.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
welcome jenn! this is the place ,if you need someone to talk to or just want to get something off your mind . icame in here some months ago and still check this forum everyday . we will be here for you. trust in god and yourself . you are special just like everyone else is to me in here . may god bless you and again welcome.
Welcome. We all came to that point...where the alcohol wasn't working anymore and we had to find something else to fill that hole. You are in a good place...here on this board, and at face to face AA meetings. If you want to stop drinking, we will tell you exactly how we did it. We will be here for you when things get tough, so you don't have to pick up that drink. You said you don't know why you drink...none of us really did...we just found many excuses to justify the drinking. AA has shown us how to live without drinking.
So what do you do now? Look in the phone book, call the AA number listed, and get to a meeting. Introduce yourself as a newcomer, and let the recovery begin. You deserve it.
You are not alone. I have been to many AA websites, and this one has literally changed my life. I recieved my first personal responce here on the private message board. It made me want to cry. Its important to feel someone really cares, and knows where you are coming from.
Keep coming back, you wont be sorry.
Nancy Jo
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Jenn, I want to say welcome to MIP, I'm glad you have found us. Everyone has said what I would say, I just want to add that alcoholism is also a disease, our bodies do not process alcohol like "normal " people. That is one of the things I found out in AA.
Your children are a wonderful reason to stop drinking, the most important reason is for youself. You are a valuable human being and you are worth living life sober and healthy.I stopped drinking when my daughter was 8 years old, two years later I had my son, what a different experience it was having him, doing his first 8 years clean and sober. My daughter and I began to grow and love in a whole new way.
Please keep coming here, and you've taken the first step.
