Woke up fully recovered from my little "Lucy's Mad at Charlie Brown" and no long laying down and kicking in revolt over not getting what she wanted.....who knows maybe on our BDs we go into primal childhood bs. that is how it feels for me today.
I have this awesome CD, a Greogorian Chant from a Christian Chapel.....and had some coffee, and closed my eyes about a full hour, listening to this CD on loud, I have very high ceilings and it felt just like it was live music.
The Peace and tranquility of just being alone, with GOD, and maybe even a little, sorry for offending YOU was in there, but HE heard me I am sure....
Back to adulthood today, and grateful for my life and everyone in it....
Yes we sure can come here and vent the bad days, but we also get to share with everyone the simply joy of feeling happy and content and close to GOD.....
This MIP board, and AA, and the life we were allowed to experience vs. dying a horrible drunken death, is a GIFT that is never to be taken for granted, and always need to seek out next thing in our instructions on how to live a truely good life, seek out someone that is struggling...and do anything you can to share your ESP and the gift that have been given freely to me, they must be shared with a new person, and help them grow with the steps.....going to a newcomers Meeting this Saturday night, usually dont like going cause it is too late, 830 to 10:00. Well I just got over myself, haha, and will be there, rain or shine.....
Love and hugs to all my friends here....wishing every single one of you the quiet joy I feel today inside....
Toni, this post is a real joy to me. You amaze me. I have been watching you roll along for the past 5 or 6 years, sometimes up, sometimes down just like the rest of us, but that "going back to God" stuff is a constant for you, and I envy in the most wonderful way, the relationship you have developed with your Higher Power in around 20 years of recovery.
You have such a marvelous way of sharing it, too. And it is very meaningful because you share the down days too, which is neccesary to see, so we can be fully appreciative of when God lifts you back up to your feet again and shines the sun on your face.
You are beautiful and you have been responsible for more smiles in my recent years than you will ever know.
Love you to pieces.
Joni
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
