While drinking, we were certain that our intelligence, backed by will power, could rightly control our inner lives and guarantee us success in the world around us. This brave philosophy, wherein each man played God, sounded good in the speaking, but it still had to meed the acid test: How well did it actually work? One good look in the mirror was answer enough.
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My spiritual awakening was electrically sudden and absolutely convincing. At once I became a part -- if only a tiny part -- of a cosmos that was ruled by justice and love in the person of God. No matter what had been the consequences of my own willfulness and ignorance, or those of my fellow travelers on earth, this was still the truth. Such was the new and positive assurance, and this has never left me.
1. TWELVE AND TWELVE, P. 37 2. GRAPEVINE, JANUARY 1962
Thank you for sharing that. It was my so called intelligence that hampered my recovery in AA. I found that it was the spiritually inclined that had strength. They were able to overcome their resentment and fears better than I was able to. They never got into stupid arguments or controversy. My sponsor was one of them. When I faced my problem squarely with help of God, that is when I found true peace and happiness.
