Typical of a junkie and drunk

janet · Senior Member

Typical of a junkie and drunk

mikef · MIP Old Timer

Janet we will love you until you can learn to love yourself.Hope to see you back,starting again!There is no graduation here, just "one day at a time"I will pray for your safety.We have all done things in our lives that were hurtful and self-centered ,it is the reason even when we put the substance down we still have all the work to do.Coming to believe" in anything greater than your addiction can bring you peace,Be well,the light is always on....

Reffner · Senior Member

We love ya Janet, and were here for you if you need us. You said it yourself...your an alcoholic. So you drank, so what. It's what alcoholics do. Please put the bat down and give yourself a break. No one is here to condemn you or point fingers. I could very easily end up being where your at today...I'm only one drink away. We all are. You ARE NOT ALONE in this my dear friend.

Your in my prayers

Brian

Lexie · Senior Member

There ya go, you made an amends. Actually, what struck me about your blackout posts was not the meanness so much as the confusion and sense of betrayal (inaccurate though it was). Alcohol is famous for making us paranoid, easily offended, ready to lash out blindly.

Keep coming back, please. I know you don't want to go back there.

happinessisawarmgun · Veteran Member

Trust me, we've all done worse things! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay worse in my case. You drank... got a little out of whack on the message board....it's really not that big of a deal. I hope you feel better soon:)

Just Toni · MIP Old Timer

Hi Dear,

Just please remember you are always in the company of drunks, and we have found a way, one day at a time to not drink.......through the Gracious Love and Unconditional Love of a Higher Power that I always choose to call GOD.

God loves you in your pain, this I feel certain of, for whenever I have been in a lot of pain, right in the center of that Pain is Exactly where I find God.

Sadden to see you say you are gone.....if you had been here on MIP for a while longer, you would see that many times, people slip, come on the Board and do whatever it is that they do best drunk....then before you know it they are back as a newcomer.

Sure as heck hope your sister in law is now gone....and you were going to meetings, so why not go to one.....you dont have to be sober to attend, you only have to have the Desire to not drink.....the suffering alcoholic.....that is WHAT this MIP Board is DESIGNED for, surely you dont believe it is for some that have worked the Steps, and get a glimpse of a better life.

Wish so much that John, the man that designed this board had his Mission Statement up on the top.....

Just as the Rooms of AA are really designed for the struggling alcoholic, the newcomer, and you can be a newcomer no matter how many times it takes...the stuggling person is the true Life Blood of this Program....

Ok, sounds like I am trying to twist your arm into staying, and truthfully I think I am. Whatever happened the other day, cannot remember the day or the event. any day that is behind today is DEAD and Gone!!!!

Ok, just Praying you will consider staying and forgetting what happened, think everyone else has.....

And no matter what I Pray that you will go to a face to face meeting...let the Love and lack of Judgement rap it arms around you, and dust yourself off and start over.....we never ever have more that one day, and this one is almost over....so tomorrow is another day.

We all have a life threatening illness, treating as if your life depends on it....cause sometimes for some it does....

Big Warm Hugs (((((((((((Janet)))))))))))

ljc · MIP Old Timer

Been there done that.

Time to get off the pity pot and stop feeling sorry for yourself.

No human power could or would relieve my alcoholism, and neither can or is any human power a threat to my sobriety. I make me drink, nobody else. Blaming it on others is just a classic excuse I have used many times.

What are you willing to do Janet to stay sober ?

louisa · Senior Member

((((Janet))))

Big loving hug to you - don't know if I should admit this but when it all was going on I kind of smiled to myself thinking.....yes......I used to behave that way too - still have a propensity for putting 2 & 2 together and making 5 today aww

. I, like you, made amends, you have done your part.

Now where to go from here? Well it's simple. 2 choices. Keep doing things your way and risk this stuff (and worse) happening again - or surrender totally and honestly to this program. Become teachable.

I hope you choose the latter. Like Brian said, You are not alone.

With love,

Louisa xx

Sobrietyspell · MIP Old Timer

Welcome back, Janet. Nicely said. I am proud for your humility. I hope you will let your Higher Power love you through us like it no doubt does. I hope your faith, hope & trust in us can carry you through while you learn how to continue in surrender.

As soon as I conceded to my innermost self that I am alcoholic & could not manage my own life the sooner I became prepared to go to any lengths for my sobriety. That meant following as I was guided by others in this program & learning how to live this new way of life through the instruction of the twelve steps.

My life is beyond what I hoped in self-respect & potential for growth. I am sober 3 years 9 months by the Grace of my God 1Day@aTime. Yours will be beyond your hopes too if you're prepared to let go of all your old ideas & surrender to this simple program.

It takes some time, it takes much persistance but, by God, your life will be so much better. My heart is bursting with love & promise for you, Janet. If you feel wretched, like I once did, this new way of life will give you everything you've longed for like it has for me. All of my 'wants' may not be met but my needs & all that fulfills me is full to brimming over.

Thank you for being here & helping me to know I'm doing the right things too. Again, your humility & your willingness to be here with us too touches & inspires me. Thank you for your courage in coming back. We're not alone. God bless you, Janet. Yours in recovery love & fellowship, Danielle x

Aquaman · MIP Old Timer

It's not a contest, Janet. You didn't lose a big fuzzy white teddy-bear for getting tore-up.

Get up and do it again. What did you learn?

Rob

louisa · Senior Member

Danielle shared....

Thank you for your courage in coming back.

So true! You didn't seek to hide under another identity. You came back and made amends openly and honestly - that is wonderful. You would give me the courage to do the same thing,God forbid, (One Day at a Time hopefully not), I should ever slip back into the nightmare of drinking.

(((With love))))
Louisa xx

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

Yes...our PRIMARY purpose is to help the still sick and suffering alcoholic. What the hell would we be doing if we judged you? Granted...I let my ugly side out here recently in another post...and I didn't even have to drink to do it...It is alright Janet. This is all about learning and self-improvement. The worst thing you can do in AA is stop coming back. That is when your disease takes over and you lose. Just keep coming back and do NOT listen to those voices that want to shame you, make you feel less than, and drive you away.

In support,

Mark