hi everyone im doing fine had something happen over the weekend. i guy from my home group had 17 months in and went back out. i feel so shitty since i got the news . worst i felt in . i just had to share with soneone. thanks for being here god bless all wagon
Its sad to watch Wagon-it really is, especially when we get to know others, and care about them.
But for the grace of God, there go we.
Ive seen people go back out at 14 years--20 years-27 years, even. The shit hits the fan-they cant handle it, or whatever the reason--they pick up a drink--and are gone again.
Some make it back--some dont.
Had a dear freind pick up a drink after 5 years--found him dead in his bed 3 weeks later.
Have seen a lot of death and destruction. It re-enforces our sobriety and just proves its all one day at a time-and that we are just one drink away from insanity.
There have been times when Ive wanted to pick up a drink during the time Ive been in AA--just to kill the pain. The only thing that stopped me was--knowing the consequenses.--and that would be death.
On the weekend,I spent some time with a close freind, in AA, going through some heavy stuff.
They were going to get back to me. They didnt. Ive spent 2 days trying not to worry--wondering if they are safe and ok. All I can do is pray, that they are, and hope that they get in touch.
There was a time when we didnt really care about others. Just ourselves.
Today we do. We do that with compassion and love.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Sorry about your friend...all we can do is pray for those that need our help, and be there for him when he calls for help. It's ok to be empathetic, but don't feel as if you didn't do something that you should have. Working with wet drunks has taught me that no matter what I do, some will succeed and others will not. It does keep me sober though.
I honestly know how you feel.Just made a call a couple of days ago to my friends sister to find out how he's doing. As I suspected my friend is still using. I knew in my heart because i hadn't heard from him for some time. It hurts my heart because he's a really good person but not thinking straight because of his using. I am powerless. I gotta care about him from a distance, and pray my heart out that he finds recovery before he dies. And yes, it reinforces my recovery that much more. Just goes to show that no matter how long we have in the program, we all live one day at a time, a daily reprieve is all we have. That's why we gotta work at our recovery EVERY DAY.
I will say a prayer for your fellow, and one for you.
. i just had to share with soneone. thanks for being here god bless all wagon
