It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that they are difficult. -- Seneca
When we reach a stressful time in our lives, our vision gets narrow. We fail to see the options and possibilities we have. If we give ourselves over to our worries and fears, our sight closes down even further. Finally, we reach the point of blindness to reality and to all the support around us. In our fearful blindness we say with conviction, "This is too difficult! There is nothing I can do."
Spiritual people strive to keep one eye on the horizon, even in a worrisome situation. They breathe deeply so they do not tighten up or close off their exchange with the world. They return to the relationship they have with their Higher Power, trusting the process to carry them through - and they open their eyes to quietly take in the possibilities before them.
Close to my Higher Power, I have a place of calm in the midst of difficulty and see the possibilities and dare to act upon them.
All my life, I've always gotten caught up in my troubles. So much so, that I wear them like a neon sign. I become blind.
An attorney told me recently, "You can't drive like that!" I thought what? I'm stone cold sober. Then I thought, OMG is it that obvious? I must be completely insane acting, LOL I laugh now,but damn.
Becoming blind to other possiblities...This has always been an avenue of my life that needs improvement. Often I did not know nor understand how to go about getting a hold on these negative emotions, that too often accompany problems in my life.
Seeking a higher power I imagine is the ultimate...so is calmness...facing our fears,positive thinking and staying sober thru it of course.
Spiritual people strive to keep one eye on the horizon, even in a worrisome situation.
I love that so much! I have just learnt that thanks to budget cuts I may have a problem with funding something I thought was funded....as long as I did my bit and passed an exam I just took! Looks like there maybe (ONLY maybe) some doubt now ! (After many years of study!!)
Thanks to AA and this amazing program I am able to accept this possible hiccup and keep one eye on the bigger picture ......"on the horizon"......what will be will be ! maybe HP has other plans!
Staying sober is my primary purpose.......the rest is not absolute.
Thanks, Larry: Prayer is getting me through these days. That and "One Day at a Time". So much has changed in my life lately. I have 60 days sober today. I am thankful for that. But I'm also back living with my parents, fairly newly separated, no job, no car, no $. I'm hopeful, because of my sobriety. But it's scary, and I get lonely and depressed. I go to outside meetings, but am also shy. So, I struggle with meeting new people. I really don't have a support system. I will keep trying. Thank you for your uplifting words! Cathy
(((Cathy))) Welcome! WELL DONE on 60 days.....that's brilliant.....yes I know ...probably doesn't always feel it !
I lost everything too. My job, roof over my head, my dignity.....I felt a complete and utter failure. I was filled with shame and guilt and embarrassment. I just couldn't see any way out of the despair I felt. I PROMISE you it gets better, It really does. Try if you can to just trust the process and the words of those who have gone before you........that is all I could do in the beginning. I struggled with a concept of a Higher Power and thought I may fail because of that .....but that doesn't matter............that comes in time.......I trusteed the AA process.....blindly sometimes! It is SO worth it, I promise. It's amazing how a day at a time turns into weeks, months, years and how life changes beyond recognition. The steps have not changed my life, they have given me a life, but like I say it is a process.
You are doing great and yes I am shy too - to the point of terror sometimes! I am alot better than i was when I first came into AA but that doesn't matter either. AA is there to get and keep me sober ! I don't have to be an extrovert or anything other than myself to succeed. Like a lady at a meeting once said ......sobriety is tough sometimes but nowhere near as tough as drinking.
Sending you love and support, I am in England - so my times on here vary and I'm not always here everyday .....but please feel free to Private Message me if you ever want ! Louisa xx
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maybe HP has other plans!