I'm sick . Been sick for the last 2 days. Fever, aches and pains, and don't even want to think about food.
Last night while I was lying in bed I had one of those moments when everything seems to make sense. For me, these are very spiritual experiences, and love the fact that I can recognize them today.
I've been a little out of sorts lately (nothing major, just life on life's terms) and have spent a fair amount of time in my head, beating myself up for still having character defects (reading that here reminds me how silly that really is). I suddenly realized that all I was really thinking about was how $**tty I felt, and not even thinking about life's other problems. My HP helped me see that this was one of His ways of giving me a break from myself. Sure I don't feel good, and yeah it sucks, but I know how to deal with being ill...it's the other stuff in my head that I still have problems with.
So these few days of being sick have been an answer to prayer, and a blessing in disguise. This is God doing for me what I can't do for myself. Once I learned to look for the blessings and good in all life's situations, they became much easier to see. My life is no bed of roses, but no matter what happens today, I'm quite certain I'm not going to drink today.
I don't get sick very often, and usually it's just a day being a little bit out of it. But this past fall I took a trip to Chicago with my wife. She got sick as soon as we got there, and by the third day I had it too. She began to get better but I was so crappy that she ended up doing all of the driving on the way back. Coming back I had to take three more days off work. I called my doctor and I said I thought I had swine flu, and he said no you don't - that's over within 3 days. Had some kind of other upper respiratory thing that gave me a low grade fever constantly and just sapped all my energy. I was pretty much out of commission for 5 days, and took another 5-7 days to be even close to normal. It was a break I needed though. And I think that's why all too often we get sick right when we head out to a long-planned, much needed vacation. I don't like being sick, and certainly don't want to be especially on a vacation, but I do try to look at it as a break, a chance to do nothing for a few days even if it's boring. Sometimes it's ok to be bored, especially when I've had a major run of drama and excitement.
I believe sometimes, our HP just sits us down for a minute to get our attention.I know it is so annoying when we get sick because it takes us out of our routine and we don't like that.Hope you start feeling well soon.I know for me after I have been knoced down with sickness(and for me also very rare)That I certainly do appreciate the benefits of being healthy again once I get better.....
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. Been sick for the last 2 days. Fever, aches and pains, and don't even want to think about food.