Good Afternoon , I just read your posts about the train and the one with the Serenity Prayer... needed those today.Thanks for the great stuff you post, expecially for the one's of us who need our glasses changed.
I also read your post under the daily reflection I posted last night.You read my other post but I wanted to thank you for your kind words.
You know, I have met myself coming and going lately, and I'm geting a bit frazzled ...I'm sure you can tell. I have been caring for my Mom since Jan. and trying to maintain my household and her's. She is not one of those dear, sweet 77 year olds that I find myself attracted to, she is one of the negative, bitter, women, who has never been happy with a thing. Soooo, I am not doing anything to her liking or standards, and she tells me daily. A few days ago she let me have it very loudly for about an hour, she knew I would be leaving for a meeting. Later, I called to check on her and she had lost her voice... it was not funny, but it was a blessing for a day and a half.
I tell you all this to say I am so grateful for the programs of AA and Al-anon, how to accept people, place and things I can not change, how I have learned to stop being the victim,how to detach with love, and how to take care of me. Someone ask me the other day how long I was going to keep careing for my Mom,I said,"Well, I choose to do it today, not sure about tomorrow yet." This too is a one day at a time deal, do I have a back-up plan, yes. I can call my brother when the day comes I choose not to do it any longer. I've learned a lot from the programs and from you. We do the best we can, some times we mess up, but we have no control over the others in our life.
Yaaa Gammy --I know what youre going through--as you can get frazzled--and try to be unfrazzled--one day at a time.
I understand with love-and care what happens in your life.:) Its a big test some moments, let alone days.
Well-Im getting unfrazzled--and snipping a few strings in my life for me.I Let a few more things out in the above post.
As I look at that post--I say to myself--"Holy Sheet!!" no wonder my self esteem went for a crap.
Sometimes we hafta make decisions for us ---Im one who hasta be beat into the ground-and beat myself into the ground before I surrender, that a decision hasta be made.
We dont hafta be doormatts. Life is short. And theres been enough pain.
Looking forward to tomorrows, and comming outa that D pit--to start living, for a change.
Gammy ? I love you. as do a lot of others on this board. We truly care. Big Hug Gammy. A Big Hug!!
And WE are here for YOU!!
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